My Babbles and Jabbers ;)

Counting Down

2010-04-18T23:23:00.002+08:00

I'm actually due for labour yday, but I chose to put it off and wait further cos' I'm not prepared for early birth (at 36 wks? no way!!) yet. Well, preparations at home is definitely more or less done, it's the work that I'm worried about - my handover list was not completed yet as of yday morning, the temp staff will only come in on Tue, and the best part? My gynae is away attending a medical conference and will only be back tmr evening. Urgh. All these uncertainties put me in such insecurity, so I thought I better settle them one by one quickly so that I can give birth with an ease of mind when Dr Ang is back.

So far the bloody mucus has stopped, just that the weight of the baby is falling all on my pelvic area, and it's making me so hard to walk without the legs wide open. Have not been sleeping well in the night either, waking up at least twice to pee, and it's so hard to toss and turn with such a big tummy too. Day time is even worst...keep feeling tired, and just over this weekend, I had slept twice in the day, something rare and which I don't normally do even during my early days of pregnancy. Hubby Goh was still praying hard that baby will arrive only on 21 Apr, cos' we can share the same birth date of 21st while he and Garreth boy shares the same birth date of 15th. Well, it definitely sounds like a plan, but I would definitely hope to pop the little gal out asap cos' I'm really worn out!

Now, what I'm worried is that my diation will stretch even further from 4-5cm to more and can't wait till Tue. Darn, I don't wish to give birth at home or the public. Baby, just hang on...let's all hope that Dr Ang will be back in the clinic on Tue (hopefully she didn't go to Europe and get stucked there!), I'm ready to pop by then and everything just fall smoothly as planned.

An Eventful Sunday

2010-03-15T11:22:00.003+08:00

It was meant to be a happy welcome gathering for the Sister (to be back from Japan for the weekend) turned out to be dreadful lunch affair at the Asia Grand Restaurant yday. Well, we were all enjoying the Peking Duck when this man came to our table and approach the brother in law and started accusing our old man (my dad) that he has done something unruly to his wife earlier in the handicapped toilet.

Ok, let me ask, who in the right mind will not lock the toilet door when he/she is using it?? Well,that man's stupid wife DID!!

What happened was dad needed to wash his hands and he was directed to the handicapped toilet by the service staff since the toilet was quite near to our table. The toilet door lock did not reflect that it was occupied, so dad's natural instinct was to push the door to go in. Unfortunately there was a loud woman's scream and dad had a shock and quickly move on to the gent's instead. So while we were having our last dish, this man came to confront and accused dad that he has insulted his wife earlier and demanded for a "sincere" apology from him to his wife. I admit that Sis and Bro in law could have reacted slightly harsh with that man (well, in the first place, that man spoke in a very demanding tone too!), so I interfered trying to mediate between 2 parties but to find out that stupid woman has already reported police!

Fine!! So we waited for the police to arrive and took our statements separately..all the police can derive was that this was a mere misunderstanding and has treated the incident as Police Assistance "case" cos' it was obvious that it was the other party's fault for not locking the damn door and not any of my dad's fault for barging in. Precious time was wasted (almost 2 hrs!!) cos' that woman refused to rest the case and her hubby was frantically calling the Snr Investigator Officer using the policewoman's handphone trying to pursue the matter further. There was also a point where the policewoman tried to persuade that woman (i believe!) to let the matter rest but she burst into tears and created a drama instead. WTF?!?!?

I really felt ashamed of her. C'mon, you're obviously an educated adult, don't you know that you have to lock the toilet door when you are using it?? She claimed that there was also her maid and 2 kids in the toilet with her, they can be witness, but hell, are you holding an orgy session in the toilet with so many people in the toilet? And if you mentioned that you have a kid manning the toilet door for you, would my father has seen anything??? And it's not that you're fully naked, why you asked for a Qing Bai? She must be out of her mind!!

So anyway, the restaurant staff and some regular customers came to give us their support cos' they really felt that the couple was being unreasonable. The entire experience wasn't pleasant at all with all the restaurant go-ers staring at us being surrounded by 3 police, but we were glad that they came to be the middleman and help settle the situation. What we last wanted to see is arguing and fighting with a pair of morons in the public and going nowhere with this trival matter.

And guess who's the champion in the entire saga?? WE!!

Haha...all thanks to Hubby Goh and his instant inspiration. While carrying Aidanz, he took a peep on the police patrol car and took down the car license number, add another number behind (there were 9 of us, so he suggested 9) and we pooled to buy 4D together (with my mum and dad). Alas! We won starter prize for that number and won $2.5K!!! hahahaha....

Must really thank that idiot couple..without them, we won't be $2.5K richer lor...but then again, BALLS to you woman, better have your lesson learn and lock the toilet door the next time you visit one!!

Tired...Fatigue

2010-03-11T11:16:00.002+08:00

And I thought I was well rested last night cos' only woke up twice to pee compared to the usual 3-4 times...but here I am starting to feel sleepy and missing my bed :(

Endure endure...

Theoretically it shld be another 7 weeks more, but that largely depends on when the little princess wants to arrive and see her folks. Now walking is already starting to become a chore, shopping is no longer my favourite hobby and the most I can go is perhaps 30mins walking and then I will need to find a refuge to sit down and rest that poor spine and legs. Hard to also play with the boy now on the floor cos' it will take me sometime to pick myself up on twos again. Sometimes the boy has to help pull me up too, usually he will go "Mummy, 1, 2, 3...1, 2, 3..." so helpful of him :) love him to bits!

So, since last weekend, I have been overworking the poor washing machine, throwing all the cute tiny pink and red clothings into it for washing. The rompers and PJs are done, what's left are the cloth nappies, sleep suits, some mittens and booties and new cloth hankies. Target to pack the hospital bag by this coming weekend and clearing up of the nursery by the next. All shld be done by end of this month and come next month, I will be busy doing the handover to the new hired temp (hopefully by then we already have someone!) and counting down to the popping day!

Can't imagine going through another round of confinement again, hoping that the experience this time will be better and more "enjoyable". Oh, nearly forgotten about the getting the maid as well, really need another pair of hands to help out at home since Hubby Goh always have last minute night jobs or entertainment to attend with bosses. Hopefully can get a reliable maid and not go through the headache of maid changing after hearing the horror stories from frens and relatives. Yah, it's just like striking 4D, all depends on luck, so pls wish me all the luck!!

Still sleepy..the lunch is making me even more drowsy than ever....urghh...how to survive for the 4pm meeting later??? zzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

AVP

2010-02-12T11:27:00.002+08:00

Yes yes! Just got the sms notification form Hubby Goh that he has received the promotion letter and he is officially appointed as the AVP!!! Yahoo!! So happy for him! All his hard work and effort has paid off...FINALLY! He must be grinning from ear to ear now....hahaha..guess it's his best birthday pressie this year!

I'm happy too cos' i will be getting a bag of my choice..AGAIN! Muhahaha...Now I deliberating whether to get another LV or a Miu Miu...hehehe..so excited!!

Then again, I think I'm having less and less energy to shop liao. Now nearly 7 mths and already feeling the "heaviness"..walking has became a chore and sometimes I just feel like sitting down and do nothing..haha. Sounds so lazy as compared to my previous pregnancy. But funny leh, I didn't put on alot of weight this time round (around 5 kg so far?), but yet I felt heavier?? Hmmm...

Anyway, we have already decided on a name for the darling gal. Not going to disclose here until she's born, but we have been prepping Garreth boy and he has no probs pronouncing or remembering it. That smart alec! Love him to bits :)

Halfway Mark

2009-12-29T15:08:00.002+08:00

Yippie! I'm already halfway there, another 4mths+ and I will pop pop pop!

Went for the scheduled detailed scan yday with Hubby Goh. The wait for the scan was sooooo LONG (40mins) while the scan only took less than 30mins! But the wait was worthwhile afterall cos' we saw how beanie did rock and roll inside, flipping up-down and showing her all-so powerful kicks :) And yes, it's 100% confirmed that beanie's a GAL...it was pretty obvious when the sonographer was scanning for the fenur's length (thigh bone)...I was frantically checking if there's any little "3rd leg" in between those thighs and was quite relieved when the sonographer announced that it's really a GAL..hehehe...I is so happy! MIL was as anxious as I am as she called when I was in the middle of the scans! I think she's just as happy for getting a grand daughter this time!

And now, Hubby Goh is just hoping that the precious princess will the Daddy's Gal...haha...cos' Garreth boy is an absolute Mummy's Boy and he is jealous about it..hahaha. Way to go Daddy Goh!

So...hehe...I can start shopping for all the girly items..errm actually I've already done so secretly, just that I never tell Hubby in case he throws a wet blanket.

Statistics as at 20 weeks and 6 days:
My weight gain so far - 2.4kg
Beanie's weight - 430gm

To side track...I'm bio-ing a sling bag from LV and Hubby Goh has generously agreed to sponsor cos' he just got his bonus. Muhahahahaha.....I should be so lucky...lucky lucky lucky!

It's 90%......

2009-11-30T15:22:00.002+08:00

Had my 17wks check up today and mini bean is doing fine, just that the whole time it was curled and heads down, even moving my tummy left right didn't make it budge at all, guess that's it's comfort position :)

We did a gender check as well and though beanie wasn't in the best position, Dr Ang could not detect a mini penis, so it could be a GAL though she said it's only 90% accurate. We have to wait for next month for the detailed scan to get a 100%. Yippie!! I'm happy even though it's 90%, now praying super hard that we get that 10% as well to secure a 100%!!

As for my health...sigh, have been suffering from this nasty cough for about 3 wks. Took 2 doses of antibiotics and 2 bottles of cough syrup, it was kinda getting better last week but somehow I think I caught another bug and was down with fever again and then the throat infection is back! Duh. So this evening, it's back to the GP again and I think he's gonna prescribe me with more antibiotics to ensure that I don't get mycoplasma. Sigh...it's so agnosing..I can't wait to be fully recovered! This cough is getting nowhere! Simply hate to be sick!! And because of the cough, I lost my appetite and today when Nurse Julie weighed me, I was a kg lighter instead of heavier!! I just hope that minibean is not affected by this and growing heathily inside me....

Wish me luck on the 10% ok?!

My Biggest Pressie

2009-10-03T16:24:00.004+08:00

And so the celebrations ended, both birthday and 5th wedding anniversary.

Though we didn't do anything BIG, managed to spend a day together reminising the dating times..without the BOY of cos :) We went to The Line at Shang for a sumptuous lunch, he has been there twice already for some company functions but thought it will be good to be bring me there since I've been lamenting abt it for quite sometime..hehe. Well, the food was not bad, I wish I had a bigger stomach to wallop them all! After the heavy lunch, we proceeded for some shopping cos' I wanted to hunt for a nice wallet for hub to replace the old one I've bought him 6 years ago. Yes! He's still carrying that and he keeps insisting that it's still in good condition and he can still use it for another 5 more years...haha..this man ah! Anyway, I've managed to convince him and bought him a leather Montblanc wallet. He's still keeping it in the box cos' he said he wants to use it for the new year! OMG! I dunno what to comment abt this man...haha.

For me, I've indulged in another Gucci bag for myself. Hee...it was quite affordable so thought of rewarding myself for the hardwork I've put in for work and at home. Like hub's wallet, my new bag is still pretty well kept in the dust bag cos' I've intended to use it for the chinese new year too...muhahaha...

And guess what's the biggest pressie I've got this year??

Ta-dah! Baby #2!!

Discovered the pregnancy on 13 Sep and was confirmed by the gynae on 28 Sep. Yeh, I waited for 2 weeks to confirm it cos' based on previous experience, the gynae can't check on anything if it's still too early. So by the time I went, I was delighted to know that I'm already 8 weeks preg and was even happier to see the little one for the first time during the scan and heard it's galloping heartbeat too!

All along I've been hoping for a girl, but somehow seeing Garreth boy growing by the day and getting cuter and wiser.. I think it just doesn't matter if baby #2 is a boy or gal anymore. Of cos' if it's a gal it will be a bonue, but if it's another boy, he will be another playmate for Garreth boy and we will still love him as ever.

So till then, we will meet beanie again in another 3 week's time...

Myopia or Hyperopia

2009-09-08T14:43:00.003+08:00

Went to make another set of new glasses last Sunday with Hubby Goh, afterall the current pair has been serving me for the past 3 years..time for a change! Didn't know what to get Hub for the wedding anniversary, so seeing that his beloved pair of glasses is turning yellowish and old, I've decided to get him a new pair too, but of cos' that's not all lah.

The trip to the optician was pretty delighting. I thought my myopia has gone for the worst since I've been staring at the laptop not only during the day but in the night as well, and the only time I rest my eyes are when I'm on bed...bad bad bad. Surprisingly, the optician diagnosed and informed that my eyesight has improved! But well, my astimatism has gone up again for both eyes but that's not too bad lah.

Actually I have mixed feelings. Been wondering if this is good or is it a telling sign that I will get hyperopia (far-sighted) soon? I am getting so worried! I would really hope that it will not hit me at this age, not when I'm even in my mid-thirties yet lor. Please please..let it be that my eyesight has really improved and not otherwise..

Sigh....so tired..

2009-08-31T10:22:00.002+08:00

Yeh..work has been massive eversince the re-org..sometimes I'm quite amazed how I could juggle 8 campaigns/events at the same time. Been burying my head into work all these while and has neglected so many things..my skin is turning bad, so dry..sleep deprived that I caught G's virus easily, down with fever one day, and another day down with stomach flu and high fever again...sigh...where is work life balance? I wonder..

Anyway, I've decided to take a long rest since fell sick last Thur. Fri was on MC but been glued to the laptop the entire day cos' of unfinished work (when is it finishing anyway??). Sat and Sun spent quality time with the boy since Hubby Goh was busy with his work and today and tmr, I took leave cos' G's childcare is closed for Teachers' Day. Decided that I should take a few hours off with boy (hooray! he's with my mum now!) and work to get my hair done (suddenly all the whites came out!)...

And clap clap...September is just a day a way! It's a month of celebration - celebrate our wedding anniversary as well as MY birthday! Hehe..

This year, we celebrate our FIVE years of togetherness...hubby goh didn't hesistate and got me this:

My FIRST ROLEX watch!!!!
He knew I don't like the lady's model, so he got me this big faced man's model instead..haha...I so *heart* him.. :)

Now, I'm scratching head what to get him although he keeps telling me that he doesn't need anything...

Sale Again

2009-06-26T16:22:00.002+08:00

Last week was Mango sale and this week it's ZARA SALE!

muhahaha.

All thanks to Grace who informed me about the start of the sale, we both (together with her colleagues) chiong down to Liat Towers during lunchie to grab good buys.

My priority of cos' is to check out the kids's section. Been wanting to get my darling boy some nice bottoms since he is outgrowing some of his pants. His one and only pair of jeans is getting shorter as he grew taller and it looks kinda funny when his socks are visible if we pull it too high up his waist..kekeke.

Anyway, my total damage for him was a freaking $240! My loot includes 5 pairs of berms, of which 3 pairs are all checked (yeah, i adore the nerdy and geeky look!), 1 long sleeve shirt, and 1 tee. Being the kia-su me, I bought mostly the 3-4 yrs old size, only one pair in 2-3 yrs old size. Haha..Well Grace said that since the berms all come with adjustable strap at the waist, so get a bigger size, at most now pull tighter then slowly reduce when his waist expand lah.

Hubby Goh was kinda shocked when I showed him my shopping loot. Even commented that I was spendthrift to buy Zara clothes for son! I was quite pissed, afterall I spent on my SON, unlike him, he rather spend on his CAR..and it's juz pieces of metal scrap! Urgh. Anyway, he kept quiet after I rebarked and commented that the berms for boy are nice. Hah...MEN!

Now, I'm so tempted to go back Zara again to get stuff for myself...hehe..

Childcare Leave

2009-06-18T10:02:00.003+08:00

Yeh, that little boy is sick again, just only starting school for only a month! Grrr...

I took childcare leave yday so as to relieve mum from having to take care of a sick and cranky todd, the two little ones plus the maid will be camping over her place since sis has to fly this week. Hubby Goh was also super sweet, he applied Childcare Leave too so that we can take care of the boy together.

The best part?

Haha..just when my leave was approved, I received a sms msg that Mango End of Season Sales starts yday (17 Jun)!! How timely can it be, I was thinking deep to myself!!

Anyway, the bet was we will take care of the boy together in the morning and I will go shopping after feeding the boy his lunch and his medicine. I expected the hubby to be frowning at my decision, but nope, he didn't and he even volunteered to send me to Orchard cos' he wanted to bring the boy out for a car ride too.

How cool can that be? Hehee..

Anyway, I was quite glad with my loot. After 3 hrs of shopping and hopping to 2 Mango outlets, I've got myself a sling bag, an evening bag, a leather belt, a pair of slim fit jeans and 2 tops. Total damage = S$250!!

The best of the deal?

Hubby Goh came to fetch me back with the little boy in the car...haha....see fortunate I am? I felt like a Tai Tai..but that's only for yday lah...

It's back to reality today :(

New Changes...again..

2009-05-18T11:03:00.002+08:00

The precious boy finally turned 18mths and poor him, we have to send him to the childcare which MIL is working cos we did not really want to worn my mum out.

I wonder how is he doing in the cc..is he socialising well with the other kids? can he adapt to the new environment? is he missing my parents? can he take his nap there? does he like the food there? Sigh....so worrying. After all he is a pampered boy being showered with all the love and attention and favourite food everyday by my parents....just feel like taking the day off and go take a peep at him to see how he is doing..

He's getting mischevious by the day, what's new, that's the nature of BOYs isn't it? I'm just wondering what's life gonna be if there's a #2 and it's another BOY again...my oh my...but guess that's another set of worry when "production" starts..haha..

Reality Sets In

2009-05-06T16:05:00.002+08:00

I'm shocked. And I'm sad..

To see my boss announce her sudden departure...to see the colleague I have most respect with left without bidding goodbye. What is going to happen to the dept?

I knew it was coming, but I never knew it came so soon and it hit the people around me, the people whom I work with closely everyday... most importantly, the person who hired me and the person who was like a mentor to me during my first few months here.

Sigh. So what lies ahead? No one can tell me that...suddenly i feel the impact of how insecure this bad time is and how vulnerable my job condition is.

Just have to pray hard everyday now for amazing grace.

Updates

2009-04-06T12:30:00.002+08:00

I know I have neglected this personal blog eversince G is born..haha..what to do, that blog's readership is much much higher than this so of cos' I have to dedicate more time for that...but no lah, this is not the main reason, I'm religiously updating G's blog cos' I want to record his development milestones, you know, kids grow at an alarming speed, so I don't wish to regret for not penning down any of his milestones...

Anyway, there are alot to update, but I think the more prominent ones are:

1. I changed my phone!
- Yeh, I'm so bloody pissed with myself for dropping the 3mth old Samsung F480 in the toilet..yes, literally IN the toilet bowl...cos' I was rushing to change back to my office gear after the stupid yoga session conducted in-house...urgh! Then again, I earned back a Nokia E71...from Hubby Goh of cos...haha...and it's really cool...and in a cool white colour also!

2. Baby G is turning 17mths old
- My baby is a big boy now, yes, I still call him my baby and he will always be :) I think my efforts paid off by keep "chanting" to him to call me "mama", so yippy! he keeps calling me "mama" now and it sends me to heaven everytime he does that..haha...He is also the supervisor at home, cos he can remember the routines we take everyday...like after Daddy has taken his shower, he will lead Daddy to the dinning table to get his tissue to dry his ears..when Mummy brings the clothes to hang, he will show Mummy the way to the walk-in wardrobe and pass her the hangers..he's Mummy's "Maid to order"... :)

3. Sending G to childcare
- This is something which I dread, but for my mum's health sake, I think it's only wise to enrol him into childcare, at least it can relieve my mum from some stress since she can't seem to juggle between taking care of Aidanz...and it doesn't help that Megen now doesn't seem to be obedient enough and is not acting as a big sister to both little brothers..I once caught her pushing G away cos' he kept going to her and snatch her toys...sigh... Anyway, have decided to bring him to MIL's childcare, at least I can have peace of mind since I know that she's there to keep an eye on him. And what touches me was that she's willing to switch to part-time just cos' she wants to bring G home in the afternoon to take his decent nap and good dinner. I've kinda changed my perspective of her and more inclined to bringing G to her on Sundays to let them bond. I guessed I have been too subjective and I should slap myself for being so...

4. No time for friends
- Haven't quite been catching up with my pool of good friends cos' eversince Mum moved back, we have to rush and fetch G back home everyday...and I didn't want to bring him home too late cos' I want my parents to have good rest after a long day of looking after 3 grandkids. Sorry friends, I know I have been neglecting you, will try to catch up with you real soon...be patient with me k?

5. No holidays
- Wanted to go on a short get-away this week but..sigh...G has just started on his SM class and I wasn't too keen to let him miss a lesson since it cost quite a bomb to get him enrolled...and yes, I was in the waiting list for 6 mths before I could secure a seat for him. So meantime..no holidays for us...unless it's on weekdays..haha..

Waiting..

2009-02-27T10:50:00.002+08:00

Urgh..backing up my files right now cos' have to install Windows 7, as per directions from the top, in support of fellow team-mate (lead of Win7)...haha.

Damn..taking so long..

I hope it won't crash my system when loaded. Bleh.

I Cried

2009-01-31T12:11:00.002+08:00

Come Monday, I will have to shuttle Garreth boy to and fro my mum's place cos' my dear sis has to report back to work after her long maternity and no pay leave since last year.

When mum was in my kitchen giving me reminders last night (like don't forget to off the water heater after use, use up the teeny bit of oil and throw away the bottle, etc..), I lost control and hugged onto her tightly and started sobbing. Having stayed with her for a year after I got married, I've kinda used to the life where everyday I see my mum in the house, niaming in my ears not to do this and do that, coming home seeing pipping hot dinner on the table, entertaining boy when me and Hubby Goh were busy preparing for work and more. I love the times when the boy has fell asleep at night and I'm tapping the keyboard on my lappy and chit chat with mum at the same time while she catches the 9pm drama. I'm going to miss staying with her, really.

So yeh..we have to start adjusting our life now that Mum has moved back and we can no longer have the convenience of sleeping late nor coming home late after work. Sucks.

Well, on the hindside, I got myself a new bag for the new year (yah, just another lame excuse to spend money!)..it's not LV or Gucci this time...it's PRADA!

Ok, I have to clarify that this is not brand new, I got this from the Milan shop (2nd hand shop) near my workplace, it's 80% new (actually I thought it's more like 90% new!) and at a very affordable price. Initially wanted to get a brand new Miu Miu which Hubby Goh has kindly agreed to sponsor, but with the economic uncertainty right now, I changed my mind and got this instead. Nope, Hubby didnt' pay for this, I did...it's so precious right now that it's still sitting pretty on top of my wardrobe unwrapped...haha.

Alright..so this will be my first and last splurge for the year...hear me..hehe..

A Surprise for Garreth

2008-10-20T10:02:00.002+08:00

Garreth's party preps is more or less settled. I have been deliberating on whether to do up a slideshow at the party, to screen show his journey from a tiny newborn to a cute little monster now. I think that will be interesting, especially for those friends and relatives who didn't manage to see him all the time to witness his fast growth.

So yeah..it will be hard work for the rest of the nights now, hopefully it can be done within a week's time!

So Lonely

2008-10-14T11:39:00.003+08:00

Been with the new company for a week+. Trying to quickly adapt to the new environment and culture and looking forward to starting on my first project soon. It's kinda lonely during lunch cos my team-mates only initiated lunch with me on my first day here and thereafter, they juz left early for lunch together without asking me along (yeh, that 2 ladies). Is it me or them? I'm left wondering...why are they so unfriendly?

Sigh...

Bloody Warzone Upstairs

2008-09-30T13:39:00.002+08:00

What bad timing. And I thought I could spend some quiet time at home with the little one and mummy during this one week break before i join the big M. Bloody kuku family upstairs moved and the new neighbour is busy renovating the entire house starting today!

Baby Garreth cried with the loud drilling going on, so we don't have a choice but gotta get mum to send him back to her place instead. All the bangings and constant drillings are driving me nuts, if wasn't to meet the buyer for my ipod at 2pm, I would have left the house earlier to stay sane.

And wtf, why didn't they inform that they are selling their place? My sis would have nego with them for a "good" price and we can be best of neighbours then.

Arrghh!!!!

Birthday Pressies

2008-09-22T17:28:00.004+08:00

Got a super "pleasant" surprise from Hubby Goh this year for wedding anniversary and birthday this year. As usual, he got overwhelmed by fun for the 2nd time and made a major lie to me again. Was rather devastated as I would have thought that he had learnt his lesson and never make the grave mistake again. I was wrong and this time the hurt got even worst.

Anyway, the entire episode was quite drama with both sides mummies reprimanding him for being irresponsible. Let's just hope that he really regret what he had done and strive to earn back the trust he has since lost.

It was afterall, not a bad anni and birthday..got some pressies which I really want/need..hehe..

1. LV Tivoli GM
- this was from Hubby Goh, got this 2 mths back (and already started using since..haha)..

2. Gucci Wallet
- been wanting to replace my 3yr old Coach wallet and chanced upon seeing this in Gucci boutique 3 weeks back. Somehow it's so pwWeeeEty that I can't to use it yet! Errm...for this, I paid myself..a little treat for the dear old me!

3. Samsung F480
- Wanted the get Omnia but Hubby Goh managed to convince me that Omnia is too sophisticated for me for a start, so he was hoping that I get used to this phone first before switching totally to a PDA. It was on a promo price over the weekend roadshow in Vivo...a pity I only went on the last day, the Black phone was out of stock and I had but to settle for the SWEET PINK instead. YeeKss...it's so so NOT me lor...but what to do? Hopefully the pink phone can make me look sweeter a little la...haha..

Ups and Downs of Motherhood

2008-08-18T21:28:00.003+08:00

It's been a turmoil eversince Baby Garreth caught the Roseola (Baby Measles) attack. He's no longer smiley and chirpy, everyday he will just whine and refused to be let alone to play...cry when we feed him milk and struggle when we didn't carry him right. Gosh, he's been such a difficult baby that I lost my cool and shouted at him a couple of times. I know I shouldn't have done that but somehow anger just overwhelmed me when I'm really clueless about what he really wants. Just yesterday, I lost my cool again and shouted at him, he cried even harder and suddenly I regretted and hugged him close and cried together with him. It's heartwrenching as he doesn't seem to be the happy baby we used to know and we are chanting hard day and night for his speedy recovery.

Sigh..really, it's not easy being a mummy, especially a first-time mum. When was the last time I had my beauty sleep till 10am on weekends? When was the last time enjoyed a good dinner with friends on weekdays? I couldn't really remember...and what's best? Transformers was my last movie in the cinema and I can't recall how many good shows I have missed over the past year...

Well, all I'm asking now is that Baby Garreth will be back to his chirpy self again and his appetite and sleeping routine will revert to square one soon...

New Job New Beginning

2008-07-30T17:36:00.002+08:00

Yup, started on the new job and today's the 3rd day. Not much happening yet as Boss left for Jarkarta today, so I reckon from next week onwards, it will be madness!

Somehow quite stressed out about the upcoming Bootcamp in US which I need to attend in Sept. Horrors of horrors, it's a one-week thingy that includes lectures, tutorials, tests and what-nodes. It's been donkey years that I have gone to school and taking tests and exams just send shivers to my spine. Urghh. The best part? If fail any of the tests, gotta re-take...the bottomline is you must pass all before you return back to your homeland. OMFG!

Anyway, got a lobang from an ex colleague today. It's a contract position at a high profile IT company and I'm not sure if I should explore further since I'm only on my 3rd day at work. It's not very nice to leave the company you have joined recently within such a short span of time righ? But the JD (job description) do sound interesting and the hirer told me that she could match my pay here or I can nego further with her. Hmmm....I guess I will just go for the informal interview tmr and then decide from there. At the end of the day, I'm looking at job satisfaction and of cos' MONEY...and this is not a regional role, which means I won't have to spend lonely days in overseas and miss Hubby and Baby Goh lor...ok whichever which...let's just see how the interview goes tmr la..

Another Prayer Answered!

2008-07-03T12:07:00.003+08:00

Yes, it's official and I've been retrenched on 1 July! Haha...

Ted was telling me that he has never seen someone who got retrenched and is so happy, must be siao...haha..but my case is different, I've got a job and I'm sitting on the resignation letter everyday, praying hard that they will offer me the golden handshake as soon as possible. And I'm glad that my prayer has again been answered! Not only they asked me to go, they gave me an attractive compensation package that could last me at least for half a year!! Now, I can buy Hubby Goh the Omega watch he has been eyeing all these while, hehe..

Anyway though I was kinda happy that they broke news to me on Tue, I was also feeling upset at the same time. Sad because I have put in so much effort in this company but all I got is disappointment and resentment. I was given an hour to pack up and go as they only told me at 5pm, it was so fortunate that by then I have already finished backing up my files and stuff so I only need to empty the drawers, did some simple handover, pat my ass and leave the office for good. Never did I turn and look back as hubby goh told me that it's bad omen....I left with shoulders wide and with all pride, feeling all relieved that all the shit is behind me right now and I dun need to be entangled in the office politics and gun shoots anymore. I'm a happy person now.

So for now, i'm going to spend quality time with the family and helpout with the sista with her newborn as much as I can. Maybe shld schedule the photoshoot for Garreth soon also...this boy is growing too fast, so must capture his baby face before he's not baby anymore...hehe..

Red Panty Really Works!

2008-06-24T12:22:00.002+08:00

Must really thanks SY for her great advice to wear red panty for an interview. Last week, on hearing that I was shortlisted for the 3rd round of interview with the President, I made my way to shop for a red panty while waiting for Hubby Goh to knock off and go home together. And I'm glad I wore it yesterday, cos' I got the job!! Haha...

And I also want to thank Gohonzon for answering my prayers. Both hubby goh and I have been chanting hard everyday and set goals that I have to get a job offer by end of this month, and true enough, by the 3rd week of this month, I have two and the offer by one is so much higher than my expectation that I found it hard to reject! It's really 妙法不可思议. And with this, it gives me the motivation to learn gongyo fron Hubby Goh and of cos' share my testimony with fellow members in the next jalangah. Now, I'm juz hoping that the current company will pok me soon and give me some kinda compensation so that I can benefit from both sides. I know one shouldn't be greedy, but I just want to get back what I deserve for slogging for the company for the past 2 years+. 没有功劳也有苦劳吗...

Have not been really productive at work lately, low drive low morale, the boss has taken 2 bloody long weeks of leave to visit the Hubby in Shanghai and I couldn't even take a week's leave to spend quality time with Baby Garreth. Now my only hope is that the new company is not a disappointment and I can thrive and contribute positively with my vast experience. Travelling is still required but with mummy's assurance to take good care of Baby Garreth while I'm away, I'm sure I can manage my time well for work and family.

Goodbye to all the colleagues here, they can all rot in here for as long as they want...haha..

SAD

2008-06-03T18:05:00.003+08:00

Mood has not been really good eversince J broke the bad news to me. I appreciate him revealing what the bloody management is up their sleeves this month but frankly, the truth hurts. I'm just counting the days they are asking me to leave. Told myself it may be a blessing disguise afterall as I've not been happy working there and it could be a relieved from all the misery I've been feeling all these while. There again, I was hoping I could hold on to this job and buy time before I managed to get a new job and go.

Everyone's been telling me that the job market is rosy now. But I seriously don't think so. After going to so many rounds of interviews, can't help but feel demoralised that none could make it. Everytime when an interview ends, I feel full of hope and looks forward to positive news from the company. One week gone, one month past but still I'm stucked in this freaking company! What is wrong?

3 more weeks before they decide to ask me to go. Wonder what will be the ultimate reason they will use? Not performing? Retrenched? I even had a nightmare on this last week and it kinda haunted me eversince. They are such scheming creatures; first they promoted the coordinator to executive, then they hired a coordinator to replace her, and when the AM, Product Marketing left, they said they are not hiring AMs anymore, then the freaking boss started to feel insecure and tried to put her leg in every projects we are handling, and I'm not surprised she was the person who put poison words to the Managing Director to kick me out of the company so that she can save her own rice bowl! I don't wish to curse, but I hope to remind her that what comes round, goes round, and she will get her well-deserved karma one of these days...well, probably she might get lucky not to get anything this life, but I'm sure her future generation will not. I am real sure about that.

So demoralised now that I don't even feel like coming to work. They only plan to kick me out by end of the month as they still need me to host the distributor conference next week in Chiang Mai. Was telling hubby that I pray hard for a successful show as I want them to know what they are missing by asking me to go.

Counting down the days...sigh..

It's So Hard to Say Goodbye

2008-04-24T10:18:00.002+08:00

I thought I would be strong but I was not afterall. Bidding V goodbye on her last day at work sucks big time. She was busy packing her stuff in the room when I walked in intended to give her a handshake and say goodbye before I go for the day on last Friday. Her eyes were moist and she covered her face and asked me to go go go...but we ended up hugging each other and cried instead.

We didn't started out this close. In fact, she was kinda hostile to me when I came on board. Things only started to change when I got pregnant and it was this topic that bonded us together and drew closer. We shared the downs in the office as we were pretty much in the same boat, and also shared the ups of motherhood. Somehow it was her that made my life in the company less miserable. It was kinda ironical too..as I was the one who kept on bugging her to hunt for jobs and well, she got it and I haven't....sigh...how sad.

Nevertheless, I wish her all the best in the new job. Though it's a totally different industry, I hope she can excel in the new position and be successful. My only regret is that we should have "hooked up" to each other earlier...but yeh..we'll still keep contact and keep the friendship going..

Here's the farewell gift she gave me...haha..penguin mouse..it's some private joke that we both shared anyway..

Demoralised

2008-03-30T12:44:00.003+08:00

Work has been extremely demoralising eversince I am back from maternity.

Somehow the numerous changes and restructing in the department have created alot of confusion and lost of direction for all the team mates. Somehow we just feel that our jobscope does not only encompass marketing, we do alot of odd jobs like admin, operations, logistics, secretariat and more to name.

So much politics for only a small company like this. When monthly sales are not met, the blame just come conveniently to the marketing team and the sales team will start venting frustrations on us, cc emails to the entire world to pinpoint our faults, calling us nasty names (marketing gals are all half past six) and expects us to do wonders when things went beyond control. Does these people ever know what the word RESPECT means?

It's been tiring having to fight wars like this and somehow it made us all very paranoid now as we are always worrying if we have done anything wrong and if these barbarians are going to bark at us for nothing again. When we do something right, they assume that it's part of our duty to do so, and when we made just a teeny weeny bit of mistake, the entire world knows and we are condemned and blacklisted for life.

Somewhat somehow, someone in the company is suspecting that I'm job-hunting now and got to the ears of the MD. I swear I didn't share with anyone except one fellow close colleague whom I'm sure she will not bao toh. Have already narrowed down the list of people and well...it could be HER and who else. Recently she has been telling other colleagues things that are untrue about me, putting words into my mouth...just don't let me hear again and I swear I'm not going to make her life any easier in the company.

Sigh..Politics..if you can't beat them, JOIN them.

Good Weekend

2008-03-17T13:17:00.002+08:00

Realised that I have been paying attention to Baby Garreth's blog and neglected my own eversince his birth. hehe..no choice lah, I make it a point to record down any milestones of him so that I will not regret for not doing so. So far, his blog has serve a very good memory of his monthly developments...it's so amazing that time really past so fast and he's a big boy now (4 months).

The past weekend has been really fulfilling. Not only we had a mini celebration when he turned 4 months last Saturday, I also decided to venture out alone with him since now he doesn't nap much in the afternoon. Brought him to Anchorpoint and Ikea, bought some stuff too. He was busy exploring the surroundings, so much so that he snoozed off in the Baby Bjorn carrier when we were at Ikea. It was not that bad afterall, didn't feel much strain or aches until when we reached home and I finally strapped him off the carrier. Keke.. I was lazy as well, though I brought the milk powder and hot water along, I purposely delayed his milk time by 1 hour cos' the cashier and cab queue was damn freaking long. Wanted to find a corner to quietly feed him, but decided not to cos he was only whimpering and wasn't crying...turned out that when we reached home and I placed him on his bed...he started to wail and actually gulped down the entire bottle of milk within 10mins! Haha...I'm so cruel.

Now, I'm planning for the next destination I will go with him this coming weekend (if Daddy is not free)...hehe..maybe this time we will venture to town??

Sigh..haven't gotten any news on the interviews I went....think sure gone case liao and have to send more applications out. Wonder if SY has any good news too? Wish her and me luck...hope we get a new job soon :)

Updates

2008-03-08T22:20:00.002+08:00

It's been a hectic week...busy with work, busy with the little boy and busy preparing myself for the 2 interviews.

Turns out that work still sucks, bet it's gonna get worst since the boss is pregnant for the 2nd time. Yes..2nd time! How productive can she be? It only she can be as productive at work..urgghh...I better get my ass out of the company before her mood swings start to kick in and pass all the arrows to me..

As for Baby Garreth..he's quite a big boy now, turning 4 months in an exact 7 more days. No doubt, his pattern has changed again and this time, he has the habit of sleeping less in the day and turning in early in the night. Well, there are pros and cons lah...if he sleeps less during the day, my mum will not be able to do much as she has to keep an eye on him...if he sleeps early in the night, everyone gets to eat dinner properly when back home cos' need not waste time coaxing him to sleep like in the past. The down part is that if I had to return home later than 7.30pm, I will not get to "talk" or play with him and the only time I could bond with him is during his dream feed at 11pm but usually he will be dreamy and gulps down his milk within 10mins and then go back to his beauty sleep immediately.

Well, about the 2 interviews I went..I have this gut feeling that one of them is really no hope cos' the interviewer wanted someone who has the experience in e-marketing which I have yet the chance to explore. Not pinning all hopes for the other one, so I'll have to put more effort in job-hunting and keep my options open. Sigh..why like that?

Online Shopping Obsession

2008-02-26T09:15:00.002+08:00

Since the start of maternity leave, I have been surfing the forum, getting tips on baby care and of cos' shopping online cos' confined at home with the baby.

So far, the buyings have been fruitful, bought several stuff from the bulk purchase threads, but mostly are for Baby Garreth, like nappy cream, toys, clothes, socks..but of cos' got things for myself and Hubby Goh, and the latest buy is the swim float for the little boy, hoping that with the help of this magic float, he will love swimming and we can bring him to the sister's condo to test trial with him when he turns 6 months (PD said 6 months should be safe cos' before that, baby's skin is still fragile and sensitive, might not good to expose them to chlorine). But before that, I will have to source around again for his swim thermal wear....haha..another excuse for e-shopping again!

Ughh..back to work, hopefully today can leave early and able to play with Baby Garreth before he sleeps at 8pm. Miss him so much...

My Life After Back to Work

2008-02-22T17:08:00.002+08:00

24hours a day don't seem to be enough for me eversince back at work.

The daily schedule now is like:
6.45am - wake up, wash/sterilise milk bottles, put laundry to wash in the washing machine, bathe, change, hang the clothes
8am - leave the house for work
9am - 6.30pm - office working (fighting wars, shunning arrows...)
7.30pm - reach home, bathe, dinner, play with Garreth, pat him and sing lullaby to him till he sleeps
9pm -soak dirty clothes for wash the next day (esp Garreth's!), sterilise milk bottles, allocate his milk powder in the container for mum's use the next day, watch abit of TV programmes
11pm - SLEEP!

It's fortunate that I do not need to do "night duty" during weekdays as mum said it's gonna be tedious on me. Been cracking brain on ways to train Baby Garreth to sleep through the night without having to wake up for milk but it's either timing not right or doesn't have the chance to do so. Mum is very soft-hearted, she will immediately jump up to make milk for Garreth once he makes a little noise...and perhaps that's why he has cultivated the habit of still waking up for milk in the middle of the night cos' he knows that he will get milk if he makes some noise. Did tell mum to ignore his calls, but she claimed that he will cry and scream if he's not fed and that will in turn wake us all up. Sigh..see lah.

Have also tried to give him dream feed at 10.30pm or 11pm after his last feed at 7.30pm or 8pm, but still, he will wake up at 3am for another feed. This boy ah...really naughty leh, his fren born on the same day as him is already sleeping through from 7.30pm to 6.30am! How ah..like that?? Since mum's going home tonight, I will probably be trying the method the forum gals have been teaching me since I'm on "night duty" alone. Hopefully he reacts positively to it and mum can save the hassle of waking up to feed him at 3am.

If only I can take care of him single-handedly...then I can easily create a routine for him since he's now 3 months old.

Tomorrow Daddy Goh will be working full day, so that's left me and Baby Goh...probably will bring him for a walk nearby (maybe the NTUC near our place??) since I have already bought the baby carrier?! Feel like a lousy mum...cos' from birth till now, I have yet to bring him out alone...haha...it's always with Daddy, else we are confined at home together. See how lah!

Hope He is Ok Soon

2008-02-21T09:34:00.002+08:00

Garreth had his 3rd month jab on tuesday. Damn, he has developed fever the next day and it has been going on and off till this morning. Mum said she heard him sniffing, so he could have blocked nose as well. Urgghh...that weak bugger. Hope he will recover soon and be his usual chirpy self again before the weekend comes.

So demoralising. Have sent out nearly 10 job applications so far but none interviews. I wanna get out of this sickening company soon, the indicators and politics are driving me nuts. To think that I have to even handle my Sales Director's air tickets and accommodation now that the admin gal has left! Absolutely ridiculous! It will be such a laughing stock that I go around telling my future employers that my jobscope includes booking air tickets and hotels for the sales managers. Also hoping that I will get a job that will require me to fly less (yes, I still want to fly!)...

I better start to chant more daimoku from now..

Haha...Got Flowers Afterall..

2008-02-16T11:41:00.003+08:00

Yah, it was meant to be a surprise from Hubby Goh, but it came super late (like 4pm?!) and the stupid delivery man was damn anti-climax, he actually called me up and asked how to get to my office to deliver the bouquet to me!

Anyway, it's better to be late than never.

The flowers did cheer me up amidst all the crappy stress at work.

Got Love but No Flowers

2008-02-14T11:55:00.002+08:00

It's V-day but seems like it has kinda lost its significance eversince got married.

So what's the surprise today from Hubby Goh?

Ermm..NOTHING..he just suggested a V-Day breakfast at Killiney Kopitiam this morning cos' he has a meeting to attend to this evening after work. Wah...so ROMANTIC..

And there's no flowers either. It's been like 2 years since I've received flowers from him? Not even a single stalk today.

Sigh. Sadness..

Work sucks too. Dread coming to work everyday. So many erratic changes and restructuring that they drive me insane. The one and only consolation is going back home to see the smiley Garreth Boy in the evening before he sleeps at 9pm.

Love the boy, he's getting cuter by the day...I wish I have all the time for him to watch him grow.

Sigh. Life sucks.

Satisfaction Is When...

2008-01-30T16:11:00.001+08:00

1. Baby Garreth flashes his million-dollar smile when you approached him in the morning when he wakes up without having to call out his name...

2. You see his "kway bong" (fat thigh) is growing at an alarming speed (haha..)...

3. He coos and ahhs at you, communicating to you as though he understands what you're saying...

4. He self-entertains himself knowing that you're busy with other work at home...

5. He prefers the playpen than the yaolan...

6. He finishes his milk and gives you the "satisfaction" grin...

7. He grabs your fingers while taking his milk...

8. He lies comfortably in your chest when you're burping him..

9. He recognises you're his mummy when you call out to him..

10. Everyone says that he looks more like the mummy than the daddy (wahahah...).

See...aren't these 10 reasons not enough to let me quit my job, stay at home and look after Baby Garreth??? *wink*

Home Alone

2008-01-29T15:05:00.000+08:00

My mum has been sick since yesterday and I'm home alone with Baby Garreth. So far, he has been an angel, perhaps he knows that I'm going back to work soon so he is behaving himself so that I don't have to worry about him when my mum takes care of him.

Just checked the company's email and realised that my Marketing Exec has been promoted to Snr Marketing Exec. I'm not surprised cos' frankly speaking she's hardworking, and also for the fact that she's pretty close with one of the Snr Sales Managers who carries alot of weight in the company. He could have spoken good words of her in front of the MD so promotion for her came easier than usual. Sigh..I don't fancy for a promotion (don't think got a single chance too!), hoping to get a new job instead that doesn't have company politics and pays me well. I need the extra moolahs to feed my baby, diapers and formula milk not cheap leh!

Aye..such a headache..haven't got a decent piece of clothes for CNY yet. All those which I have bought are all dull colours (I like!) and not suitable, more for office...and time is running out soon, cos' going back to work this Friday. Supposed to go for my haircut today, but cos' mum is sick, so I postponed to tmr..hopefully mum recovers by then. Perhaps after the haircut will go for a brief shopping spree, see if possible to grab something reddish or pinkish to wear on the first two days of CNY!

Gotta go...Baby Garreth is awake liao!

Handphone No Ring!

2008-01-28T17:49:00.001+08:00

So sad, have been applying for jobs lately but no company actually call me up for an interview! Seems like I have to stay on to this sickening company for a while before I can throw the letter to the boss. Sigh..talking about her, I'm so freaking pissed that she passed a comment to my close colleague that I have not been reading and replying emails since day one of my maternity leave.

Oh, come on man, as it's stated, it's Maternity Leave, I'm not obliged to do any work concerning the company. I have already handed over my work rightfully, so she can't simply assume that I will have the time to take care of my baby and juggle with work at the same time! She can do so cos' she has her mum and dad to help out, but for me, my mum only comes half a day, sometimes she don't even drop by cos she's busy. And Garreth Boy isn't the easiest baby to care for, so if he doesn't sleep during the day, I will not be able to other things.

Anyway, am getting kinda emotional today. Was singing the Elmo song (he loves it!) and talking to him earlier and he was all smiles and giggles all throughout. Seeing him smile melts my heart and the thought that I won't be able to do these often with him (only weekends) saddens me and tears start rolling down my cheeks. I am proud that all these while taking care of him, I have more or less know all his "patterns" and are able to differentiate his various types of cries and soothe him accordingly. Realised that my mum is still not able to do so, all she does is to dump him in the yaolan when he fusses and waste her time sitting beside it rocking him when he doesn't seem to be able to sleep long in the yaolan at all. Sigh..guess she has to work harder to know him better...

It's A BOY!

2008-01-26T10:17:00.000+08:00

Nothing could contain my joy for the sister as it was confirmed yesterday that she's carrying a BOY this time round! Woohoo!

Garreth boy is gonna have a dee dee (little brother) to play with soon! And his clothes can actually pass down to dee dee too! I was still a little worried cos' Baby Garreth has already outgrown some clothes which me and the sister have bought for him earlier, some were only worn less than 5 times (cos' we hardly bring him out) while some still in pretty good condition though (and branded too!). Goody good! I'm so happy about this piece of good news that I keep telling Baby Garreth about it..haha!

And well, the sister's $30K "bonus" from her MIL is secured! Good for her! Bet she's now the favourite daughter-in-law liao! Haha...

How I wish my MIL is that generous too...aye..else I would have already pocketed the $30K and need not worry about going back to work next week... *pout*

Now, I just wish that I could have a daughter next..not so soon lah..but my colleague told me that I must think hard for one so that I can really get a daughter the next round. Not sure if it will work, but no harm trying lah.

I WANT A GAL! I WANT A GAL! I WANT A GAL!

Clumsy Me

2008-01-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

So pissed off, to think that I've spoilt my favourite camera with my own clumsiness!

It was that fateful day when my mum decides that she will take over and bathe baby garreth in the evening (instead of me bathing him). So while she lays the boy naked in the tub, I rushed to grab my camera which I placed on the dinning chair, hoping to take some nude pics of him. It was a bloody bad move cos' I think I was so freaking clumsy that I went banging the camera against the one of the legs of the dinning table. There goes the LCD screen as it went bizzare from the huge impact and I can't view anything anymore. Sigh..stupid me...

Hubby Goh has since sent the camera for servicing and he estimated that the repair will cost a good $100+. Shucks...heartpain..but I guess it's a good lesson to learn that I shouldn't rush into things in future. Hubby suggested getting a new camera for me as Valentine's Day gift but I don't see the need, would rather just spend $100+ for the repair than a couple more hundreds for a new piece. Anyway, the fujifilm has been serving me pretty well and I'm quite pleased with the pics I've took of Baby Garreth so far.

Sigh..another few more days and I'll be back to work. Starting to dread the thought of not being able to be by Garreth boy's side during the day, gonna miss talking and singing to him, coo-ing him to sleep, his smell and of cos' holding him close to me. Mummy teased that I should bring a set of his used clothes to work so that whenever I think of him, I can bring out the clothes and sniff his smell...haha..she's right, maybe I should do that. Now my only worry is whether my mum is able to cope taking care of him alone at my place. Garreth boy is not the easiest baby to handle I would say and depending on his mood, he can sometimes fuss during the day too. Just afraid that mum will have to be confined next to the yaolan and can't do anything if he's into one of his moods. Now contemplating to get a second hand electric yaolan from the auction site, that way, can lighten my mum's workload, she can at least be freed to take some rest while the electric yaolan does the job of rocking Garreth boy to sleep. Anyone got cheap lobangs? Let me know k?

My Poor Boy

2008-01-21T11:43:00.000+08:00

Brought Baby Garreth back to the PD again yesterday cos' his phlegm and cough condition did not improve after 3 days and have been coughing really badly in the night. It pains me to see him coughing so hard, especially in the night, and I could't do anything but just to hold him close my chest and pat him on the back to soothe him...there was one night where he coughed really badly and I felt so heartache that I held him and cried in the middle of the night. He is so tiny and yet he already has to suffer all these illness. The PD diagnosed him as having sensitive nose (inherited from me!) or a mild case of flu. I'm quite confused if these are the two possibilities cos' if it's sensitive nose, would it have led to so much phlegm in his throat? We haven't been really bringing out, how would he get flu? Unless to say that he got infected when Megen jie jie was having a bad cough sometime back, or was it my brother in law who passed him the virus when he came to pick up my sis after visiting the doc to get his half-day MC for his flu? Sigh...I really don't know.

Anyway, this time the PD prescribed him with a course of antibiotics. If it wasn't him coughing so badly, I wouldn't have wanted to give him antibiotics, afterall he's still a newborn, only 2 months+. He was pretty ok last night, with no cough after milk, but this morning when he finished his feed, he started to cough really badly and it felt so upsetting again. Going to monitor his condition these two days, if things are not getting any better, will have to seek second opinion from another PD liao. Aye..it's a good thing that Hubby Goh can claim all these expenses, else really shiong ah..

Sometimes I really wonder if it's really my fault for stop breastfeeding, cos' they always claim that breastmilk is a good source of antibodies and babies will not fall sick easily. My parents also claimed that milk powder generates phlegm in a baby, so maybe that's why he's having so much phlegm also....gosh...is it really all my fault??

So sad.

2nd Shopping Spree

2008-01-13T22:01:00.000+08:00

I slipped out of the house again for another shopping spree (what else!) last Friday as I need to get a birthday pressie for baby Yun Ting (ok, it's juz an excuse..hee!).

Was on the bus heading to Orchard when the sister called and said that she's heading to TPY and can't meet me, so I decided to make Suntec my first stop as Fox and Baby Gap are having sales.

Grave Mistake!

Of all the people, I bumped into my bastard ex while on the way to Fox. Damn it! Actually I have already spotted him from a distant but there was no alternative route to divert so hastened my pace praying hard that he won't see me. BUT...he did. And bloody hell called out my name so freaking loud that I have no choice but to turn around and acknowledge him.

It was pretty awkard seeing him again. He still looked pretty much the same except that he has aged and still ever so thin and more hunched-back. He asked if my office is in suntec, I said no, I'm not working today. He probed why and I told him that I'm on maternity leave. He went on to ask how old's my baby now and I said 2 months and he added that his kid is already four year old. Geesh..as if I care?

Then he asked if I have a namecard with me. Of cos' I do...but I didn't wanna give so I said NO. He went on to ask if my mobile phone number has changed and recited my old number. I was stunned (that he could still remember!) and told him that I have a new number now and brushed him off that I need to go and told him to take care. Before I could go, he reminded me of his email addresses (hotmail, gmail..) and told me to email him to keep in touch. Hah...very funny, what's the point to keep in contact, he's already out of my mind and out of my sight since the day we parted, so why bother??

I know I was rude, but I dun care. The sight of him irks me and those bad memories started to playback in my mind and affected my shopping mood. How he used to break my heart cheating behind my back, how he fought with me over small issues, how bad tempered he was......and more.. But boy I'm so glad that it's all over now and I have a loving hubby who is a 100% total different person from that stupid bastard. And of cos' the father of my cute and adorable baby boy. Immediately when I stepped into Fox boutique, I took out my mobile phone and started to sms Hubby Goh, telling him that I met my ex and I felt so happy that I'm out of all those shit and really glad that I have made the right choice to marry him. Hee...

Anyway, the 2nd shopping spree wasn't as fruitful as the 1st. Only managed to get 2 pcs of clothes for my darling Baby Garreth, 2 tops for myself, an electric kettle, and of cos' the birthday pressie.

Let me see..when should I schedule the 3rd shopping spree again?? Hopefully this time I won't get to meet any ex on the street again...*bleh*

Hiak hiak hiak!

Shopping Keeps Me Sane

2008-01-10T09:57:00.001+08:00

Oh, before I forgot, would like to congrat SY for getting a new job in such a short span of time! Way to go babe! Hope this job is what you have been looking for and good luck!

Wanted to blog this earlier but somehow has been too busy with the baby and house chores. Now Garreth is still asleep, so I stole some time to sit down and update before WW4 starts again.

It was great taking a breather on Tuesday going shopping with the preggy sister in town. We met as early as 11.30am as the sister has to be home before 3pm to fetch little megen home from school. I went super crazy, going in and out of every shop in Wisma and Ngee Ann City..it's been a while that I have gone shopping frenzy and it seems like I have missed out alot during my confinement days as numerous shops were gone and new ones were replaced. Within 2.5 hours, I managed to get a top and 2 bottoms from G2000 which were on 40% discount (sweet!) and a pair of C&K Shoes. After sis left, I went on to venture CK Tang and bought and pampered myself a super glam DKNY watch (with swaroski crystals). It's not cheap but after deducting my credit card points and using some vouchers, I had to fork out another $170 for it. Ok lah, afterall I didn't spend much last month, so just take it as an expense I used last month lor. Far East Square was the last stop and again, I bought another pair of shoes and sandals (can't resist!) and a top too. Wanted to venture more but Hubby Goh called and "spot-checked" so I was guilt-strickened and got into a cab and headed home instead. *bleh*

Mum was very encouraging on the other hand. When I got home, she remarked that if I wanna do more shopping, better do it before I returned to work, she can help to take care of Baby Garreth while I'm away. Hehe..see how dear my mum is? I will see how and maybe will do another shopping spree tomorrow cos' gotta grab a birthday pressie for a kid's party on Saturday which Hubby Goh only told me last night!

Yeah...I love shopping!

I'm Cruel

2008-01-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

Just had a fight with Baby Garreth earlier and I felt so guilty about it. This boy's night routine has suddenly gone for a change, he used to be able to sleep at 6-ish and then wake up at 9-ish for his next feed before knocking out till about 12 or even 1am. Now, he will want to have his milk at 7pm and even though he displays tiredness and we will try to put him to sleep, he will refuse to just close his eyes and go to sleep till past 9pm. This has been going on for the past 1 week, usually Hubby Goh and I will take turns to have our dinner and then try to coax him to sleep, he is the one who will successfully make him sleep using his rocking and humming (of Lullaby) strategies. For me, I would resort to putting him on the playpen tummy down and then pat him on his little butt and hum Lullaby, it works well on some nights but somehow the technique backfired tonight.

Today, he got his milk at 7pm as usual. Cos Hubby went to dabao dinner, I tried to pat Garreth boy in the playpen, hoping that he can nap for a while so that me and Hubby can enjoy our dinner together when the food comes. As expected, the naughty boy didn't wanna sleep, so Hubby told me to eat the dinner first while he take care of the boy and I will come take over when I'm done if he's still not asleep. True enough, when I'm done with the dinner, the boy still doesn't wanna sleep and keep fussing. I took over and tried all ways and means to calm the boy down but it didn't help and he started to wail loudly as if I've tortured him. Upon hearing his cries, Hubby Goh rushed to the room, wanting to carry and rock the boy in his arms, but I refused as I didn't want Baby Garreth to associate his bedtime to "someone" will carry and rock him in his arms till he fall asleep. I perservered on, putting up with his loud and clear cries, refusing to walk around in the room, rocking him to sleep. I alternate putting him in the playpen patting him to sleep and carry him in my arms, sitting on my bed and pat him on the butt, but he was still dissatisfied and keep on crying non-stop. Many a times, Hubby Goh got heart-broken hearing his cries and came creeping in to the room to his rescue but I just refused to give in. I know it's cruel, but I don't wish the baby to develop the bad habit to only able to sleep with someone rocking him. It's quite strenuous now to carry and pat him at the same time (he's hitting 6kg soon!), and it's gonna be worst as he grows. What's gonna happen when my Mum takes over the role to look after him? I would not want her to carry him every night, it's far too shiong for her...

Anyway, I lost the fight eventually cos' I succumbed to his cries Daddy took over. Magically, with the loving cradle of the Daddy and his humming of Lullaby, he soon fell asleep in his arms within 10mins and is now sleeping soundly in his playpen. *Faint* I seriously have no clue as to how to alter this bad habit of his. Mum said this is just a passing phase and everything will be stabilised when he turns 4th month. Gosh...4th month?? He only turned 7 weeks yesterday...means another 2 more months to go?? I'm not sure if my patience can last that long...aye!

And I think I just got my retribution for being so cruel. Was trying to open the bottle of ampoule to apply my face after a shower but the stupid glass cap suddenly broke and cut my fingers. The right thumb has got 2 deep cuts and bled profusely while the index finger has a slight cut. Now the fingers are bandaged and I dunno if I can handle the boy alone tomorrow cos' mum's not able to come...

Sigh..talk about bring cruel to the little boy...

No More Moo Moo Cow

2008-01-03T10:04:00.000+08:00

Have finally made the painful decision to stop expressing breastmilk for Baby Garreth yesterday. Supply has been low as I didn't have the time to pump and also for the fact that my milk quality has deteriorated; there has been more foremilk then hindmilk, so no wonder the boy is always not full after a feed and demands for more milk more often. It's kinda sad that I can't provide the best for him, but as what the sister said, although it's healthier to give breastmilk than formula milk, still it doesn't mean that babies drinking formula milk are not healthy. And most important of all, happy mummy = happy baby, so I would not want to fuss or stress over no supply of breastmilk for my son. I'm happy that now that I could spend the pumping milk time on some other stuff, rather than fret and keep squeezing my two breasts for more milk and more milk.

Mum has been a great help so far. She has started to come over my place to helpout in the afternoon after she has cooked lunch for me. But usually I will keep the food for dinner instead so that Hubby Goh and I no need to scratch our heads to think what to dabao everytime. Feel kinda guilty for making mum so busy, she not only has to cook for us, she also has to take the bus and bring it over to my place as soon as she's done. Then once here, she will try her best to free me from taking care of Garreth boy so that I can catch some rest/nap for the "duty" at night. It's such a good fortune that I have such a GREAT mum! Btw, mum said that once I'm back to work (which is pretty soon, 1 Feb), she will consider bunking over at my place to help take care of Baby Garreth so that we don't have to lug him here and there or buy extra sets of his stuff to her place which is a total waste of money. How nice..in fact, I have been secretly praying that she will come stay with us if situation allows (no need to keep on putting up with my dad's stupiak temperament) and well, my prayer is answered!

Little Megen is put under her mummy's care now and poor gal has been sobbing at night cos' she misses granny (and sleeping with granny). Mum can't bear to let her go too, afterall she has been looking after her for 5 years, but no choice lor, she has another grandchild who needs her attention more than Megen. Now we are all wondering when sis gives birth, who's gonna help her take care of the baby since mine will only be 8 months old by then. Geesh..nobody dares to think about it...YET.

Gosh, it's been about nearing 3 weeks that I do not get a full night's sleep. Baby Garreth wakes up about once or twice for his feeds and usually I'm the one doing the "duty" as Hubby Goh has to work the next day. But he has been sweet too, volunteering to feed him on certain nights when he sees me so worn out. We have thought of a strategy to eliminate the night feeds for the boy, but we can only embark on the "project" when he turns 2 months or so. Aye..let's juz hope we have the heart to do it and if so, it will be successful.

Alright, gotta go..he's awake and wailing for his milk now...till then.

Patient...am I?

2007-12-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

Putting Baby Garreth to sleep at times can be a challenge. He can be really tired sometime but after cuddling him in our arms or patting him on the butt in the playpen for coming to 30 to 45mins, he still refuses to close his eyes and go to dreamland.

On good days, he can drift into deep sleep pretty soon, like 10-15mins of patting, but on bad days, how hard you have tried, he still open his go-lee (marble) eyes and stare at you blankly though he keeps on yawning hard. I don't mind the 10-15mins of patting, as long as it helps to get him into a couple of hours of sleep, but longer than that, usually will drive me nuts. The time spent patting and coaxing him to sleep actually eats up the time I need to do other stuff like housework, bathing, or even resting, and it kinda made me lose my patience on the little one. There was even an incident where I nearly wanted to tear my hair and raise my voice at the boy after trying to put him to sleep for nearly an hour!

I want to clarify that this is not my usual self as normally my patience tolerance level is quite high. Hubby Goh also noticed this change in me and whenever he sees me getting pek chek cos' Baby Garreth refuses to sleep, he will take over the job and manages to put him to sleep successfully. All the while, I thought that I'm patient, but am seriously wrong cos' Hubby Goh is still the ultimate winner. How bad Baby Garreth has fusses, Hubby Goh do have the patience to calm and coax him down and eventually put him to sleep. Feel so guilty on why I'm behaving this way now. Is it becos' of the hormones changing? Is it that I'm too confined at home that I feel pissed? Or is it lack of sleep and rest? Sigh..I really dunno...and I hope Baby Garreth will not hate me.

Anyway, had a good talk with Hubby Goh today and he encouraged me to be mentally strong. One trick he shared was whenever we are trying to put our boy to sleep, juz keep on reminding ourselves that we must be PATIENT, PATIENT, PATIENT...he's only an innocent baby and it's useless getting pissed at him cos' he will never know what is right or wrong at this young age.

Hmm..guess I have to work on that..I dun wanna be a bad mummy :(

Penny For Thoughts

2007-12-26T16:32:00.000+08:00

It has been a fulfilling 2 weeks spending quality time with Baby Garreth with Hubby Goh together. It was not easy, but I'm proud to say that we have achieved much without the help of anyone, just ourselves. It's kind of a shock that the CL we have hired, having spent nearly a month of her time with our baby, doesn't seem to be able to identify his wants and needs till the last day of her service. Two weeks was all we need to understand our boy and now he's a little contented baby, although at some point of times he still throw his occasional tantrums, refusing to sleep and pisses us off. But there again, we told ourselves, he's just a baby and it's a passing phase, this is all temporary and things can only get better the next day :)

List of stuff I have learnt so far:

1. Differentiate Garreth's various cries. Most of the time, he just wail for milk, otherwise it will be he is sleepy and needs some cuddles or pat on the butt to go into deep sleep or he poos or pees.

2. Bathing him is a breeze now. Back then when the CL bathes him, he doesn't like it and will always cry, but with my magic hands, Garreth boy now not only enjoys his bath, he will also smile when I lay him on the changing table after his daily bath.

3. Our baby likes to suck for comfort before he sleeps. In order not to let him cry too much, we have succumbed to the evil of giving him the pacifier. It doesn't feel good seeing him sucking the ugly piece of thing in his mouth, but the amazing part was the pacifier do really helps to get him into deep sleep faster and easily. The hindside is that Baby Garreth doesn't suck long on it, usually he will spit it out when he is about to go into deep sleep...which is good!

4. We have kinda established a daily routine for Garreth. If he is fed on breastmilk, he tends to get hungry after 2hrs, sometimes even 1.5hrs. But with formula, usually is 3 hours, on good nights, he could hold his hunger for even 4 hours. Of cos, it will be great if he can sleep through the night after his last feed at 11pm, but well, I guess I shouldn't be asking for more if he allows me to have at least 5-6 hours of sleep every night. And yes, I think I will stop expressing my milk for him soon cos' my supply has decreased due to lack of sleep, time and nutritious food. Not that I'm selfish, but coping with all the housework (washing laundry, sterilising milk bottles, etc) and taking care of Baby Garreth's needs alone, is really stressful and it has so far taken away my "ME" time, don't really have the time to do the things I really want (like going to Mango Sale!!). But I'm not complaining, what is this little sacrifice as compared to having a cute little son like Garreth..hehe..

Feel kinda sad cos' Hubby Goh will be returning back to work tomorrow and it's all home alone for me and baby. Though my mum said that she will hop over to helpout, but still, I don't expect her to take over the CL role and there are still things which I have to manage myself and not depend on her. Well, whatever it is, I will try my best and give the best to my little prince.

Oh yah, already bought a digital weighing scale the other day at Best Denki. Just weighed the boy yesterday and he has already passed the 5kg mark! Wa lau eh...

FREEDOM!

2007-12-16T23:20:00.000+08:00

The "confined" days are finally gone and things are back to normal with just the two of us, plus the little one, of cos!

As expected, the CL woke up extraordinarily early on Friday morning and prepared all the necessary stuff for me and the baby. By 9.30am, she was all ready to go and we bid her goodbye and welcomed the freedom we have longed for after this miserable one month.

Taking care of Garreth boy during the day was ok (without the CL around), but the night shift turned out to be a total nightmare for our virgin night with Garreth. He was a little cranky in the beginning, so Hubby Goh carried and patted him to sleep, when he finally zonked off, it was time for his 1st night feed and started to yell for milk. When he finished his milk and we settled him back to his bed, he pooed the very next hour and I had to wake up and clean him up. When he's finally cleaned, his next feed was due and the cycle went on and on again the entire night. I only managed to catch an hour's sleep and was totally worn off the next morning.

I dreaded the full month party, not only I was tired, Baby Garreth was affected by the sudden surge of visitors in the house and started to act cranky and couldn't get into deep sleep. We hid in the room most of the time as I didn't want the visitors to pass Garreth around like a passing baton and frighten him. I was practically counting down the time for the party to end so that I can free myself with all the entertainment and collapse in the bed. I knew I was a poor host yesterday but really, entertaining with half a mind gone is really not a joke. I just like to apologise to my visitors for my poor hospitality yesterday and at the same time thank them for their presence and lovely gifts and well wishes. I appreciate that they still show up even for the bad weather, some having to lug their babies, kids and maids along too. Thank you people, you're the best and I hope to catch up with you again real soon!

Now waiting for Baby Garreth's next feed before we hit the bed....aye...baby baby...

Counting Down

2007-12-12T13:51:00.001+08:00

The confinement is coming to an end soon and I just can't wait! This evening, am going to sneak out of the house to attend the company's Dinner & Dance, much to the delight of my colleagues. I guess they all missed me but I think I will just go and show face and come back early cos' I might miss Garreth too much..haha..

Tonight, the theme is Hollywood and we are all expected to dress up in gowns or dresses. I took a peep at the wardrobe and panicked cos' I couldn't find anything suitable. Lucky there's this beige dress I bought before I got preggy, it was intend for this year's CNY, but cos' it looked kinda overly-glam, so I hung it back to the wardrobe and settled for something else instead. And when I finally wanted to wear it, too late...am preggy and can't squeeze in liao!

Have yet to announce the good news that my dearest sis juz got preggy! And it might be a BOY! Woohoo! Whether or not it's a boy, she's guaranteed a $15K from her MIL....so lucky right? Next time shall check if she wants a god grandson, I don't need $15K lah...$10K is good enough..haha..

Confinement Lady Woes

2007-12-08T12:00:00.000+08:00

Don't mean to condemn all the Confinement Ladies (CLs) out there but I truly had bad experience with them this very first time. Call them hoax or liars, if they really had the 20 to 30 years of relevant working experience, why do we still face problems with them? Shouldn't they be some experts right now and know every tiny whiny details about baby and confinement by juz a snap of the fingers?

I have 101 reasons why these CLs are such a pain in the ass and why we shouldn't be hiring them:
1. The original CL I've hired was booked 6 months in advance with the recommendation of a gf. Although reminder calls were given to her on my assignment, she still agreed to take up 1 assignment prior to mine, which was only 2 weeks apart from my edd. Shouldn't they know that we don't pop on the exact day of our edd? So as expected, I popped 11 days earlier and she couldn't make it to S'pore on time cos' she couldn't clear the Singapore customs. She then referred this agency to me who turned out to be a total nightmare!

2. The agency got me this CL. She didn't quite really make it on the first impression, but I told myself not to stereotype. One the first day of work, she demanded my parents to buy this, buy that and commented that my kitchen is not well furnished. Subsequently she made a whole mess of my kitchen, staining my stove, spoiling my kitchen top, dirty my common toilet, everywhere was like a war zone and I was totally stressed up with her working style!

3. Not only was that CL messy, she was also unhygenic. I looked in horror when she was washing my cup with detergent in the basin where she placed a piece of raw pork thawing there! I told her off that she shouldn't do that, but she replied that she will wash the meat again before she cooks. WTF?!?

4. Besides about cooking and washing, she didn't handle my boy well too. Garreth boy was developing heat rashes around the neck for a couple of days already and all she did was to apply the DIAPER rash cream on his neck and keep proclaiming that the cream do magic and the rashes will be gone soon! They never did and there were more instead, so much so that the rashes started to spread to the bottom of his head too!

5. She was argumentative too. Told her to cook with care (cos' she has burnt all the whatever pots and pans I have in the cupboard!) but she insisted that cooking is like that, the stove will more or less be stained. I know it will be stained, but the problem was she doesn't bother to wipe clean, leaving all the oil spurts and food stains overnight. Usually I was the one who sneaked out of the bedroom to clean up her mess and got nagged by Hubby Goh instead.

6. I don't know why she is so dirty and messy but still she made a point to stay clean herself. Within a day, she can change 2-3 sets of clothings at home. The bedsheet which I have changed for her before she came, she demanded that she wants a new set of bedsheet to be changed only after 9 days of work! I refused to budge, but she was smart to remove the bedsheet and placed them in the laundry basket that I can't do anything but to dig out the spare bedsheet for her! I nearly commit murder, I tell you!

7. The last and final straw was when she requested my mum to buy more poultry and seafood to cook for me when my checked the fridge and realised that those which she has bought for me were not cooked and has turned bad and gave out foul smell. Those stuff actually cost my mum about $50 and it was wasted like that juz because of her muddle-headness!! Enough is enough, I picked up the phone the next morning, complaint to the agent and demanded for an immediate replacement!

8. The new one came after 2 days. She's slightly better but I wouldn't say she's good. Well at least she keeps the house clean by cleaning the floor everyday and tidied my kitchen after that terror CL left. But this one is a bad cook, doesn't bother to cook breakfast for me, leaving me to eat bread or instant cereals everyday. Her porridge sucks too, plain and no ingredients (although there are plenty of meat and fish in the freezer!), and let's not talk about the overcooked broccoli for dinner and the saltish chicken with overdose of black soy sauce. Yucks.

9. This auntie is defensive as well. When you try to explain and rectify her, she will say that it's not her fault. My point is not to scold her for the problems she has caused, but to enlighten her so that she will do it right the next time. But no, she don't see it and still do her own her way.

10. Not sure if being talkative links directly with age? This one can repeat her stories over and over again everyday, like a spoilt radio. She tells my parents story one, she can repeat it to my in-laws the next day, and then to my sis, my hubby and so on... Come on..I need peace during my confinement, besides baby's cries, I dun wish to hear any other blabberings!! Keep those to your family and friends when you're back home ok, auntie?

11. Somehow when the baby coos and cries, this auntie will shove the milk bottle to him to keep him quiet. Doesn't she know that she should check if the diaper is wet or if baby Garreth has pooed? No wonder the new can of milk powder is gone only after a week!! And that's only for night feeds ok?!? She better not waste them, else I'm gona cut her salary! Hmpf!!

Sigh! Feel so much better after venting about all these CLs. I've learnt my lesson and if there will be the 2nd time again (not so soon I hope!), will better do some research and findings before hiring one. Cos they not only stressed me and Hubby Goh out, they also caused headaches to my mummy and MIL! Cos they know that this CL doesn't cook well, they take turns to cook nice food for me. Suddenly I feel so bad to trouble all of them during this confinement...given a choice, I would only want them to come visit me and Baby Garreth and not go through all these stress for us.

I better be grateful.

Mum's The Best

2007-12-07T10:39:00.000+08:00

It has been part of a routine to call my mum at the end of the day to "report" to her on my daily activities (if she's busy to pop by my place) and last night was no exception. Was telling her how yucky the food the CL has cooked and the bad sleeping habit baby Garreth has developed for the past 3 days.

This morning, she turned up at my place at 9.30am with piping hot XO tonic soup, black bean pork ribs soup and my favourite black soy sauce chicken with ginger. Dad secretly told me that mum has creeped out of the bed as early as 5.30am to go the market to buy all the raw ingredients and prepared all these food for me cos' she's worried that I'm not getting enough nutritious from the miserable food the CL has cooked for me.

I is so touched that I wanna weep lor. Mum is always the best and she will always be the best. And I know that as long as she's around, I will always be dependent on her when comes to such situations. Having just been "promoted" as a mum myself, I also start to really understand the hardship of motherhood. It will be a long journey as long as Garreth boy is still little, but I strive to be a good mummy just like my own mummy.

We had a visitor yesterday afternoon. It was raining cats and dogs but SY still came all the way to pay us a visit, with 2 bottles of Ribena and 2 cups of my favourite Meiji yogurt. Not sure if it's becos' of her, baby Garreth did manage to catch some afternoon sleep during the most difficult part of the day. We did some catch ups and I did some bitchings about the current CL (I need to vent my pent-up frustrations la!), and SY left in the evening and gave a big angbao for Garreth. Aiyo..felt so bad, already told her to just come with the Ribenas but still she pushed the angbao to us. I hope she will turn up at the Baby Shower next Saturday with her old man, looking forward to take some pictures with them for keepsake...SY, if you're reading this, pls come ok?

Oh gosh...mum's XO herbal soup is sure power...my head is feeling a little light now and I guess I better take a nap before the little rascal wakes up and refuse to sleep thereafter!

3 More Kg to Go!

2007-12-04T09:31:00.001+08:00

I braved myself to the weighing scale earlier on and realised that I have already shed 8 kg since birth and I have 3kg more to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight! Woohoo! Way to go!

So far, I could comfortably wear back my favourite pair of culottes and squeeze into my jeans (but a little tight!). I'm still a little fearful of trying on my old tops cos' my "expanded" boobs might not fit! Aye...

Now having headaches planning the upcoming Baby Shower next Sat. Seems like my MIL wants to invite the whole world to the event, the relatives, her good friends, her SOKA buddies, and the list goes on and on. Kaoz..now our guest list stands at 137, wonder if there will be more as the date draws near? Sigh, I so wanna juz bring the baby away and hide over that weekend and let them party at my place. It's gonna be chaos...I hope the house will still be in one piece after the guests are gone...haha...

Time seems to pass so soon with Baby Garreth on board. Everyday's schedule is filled with pumping milk, feeding him milk, patting him to sleep, playing with him, checking if he pee or poo, napping with him...surf the internet for info (baby's development)....my whole world practically just surrounds him now and nothing else!

Realise that I still get quite edgy at times, esp when things don't go according to my way or I don't get enough rest. Usually Hubby Goh will be the victim and get snapped by me, and I feel really bad but I reckon I couldn't control myself cos' the hormones are doing tricks again. Juz wanna say sorry to Hubby Goh, I promise to be conscious of what I say and will try my best to keep cool all the time.

Know what? I long to step out of the house and be free again...counting down the days...but it also means sleepless nights are gonna start soon when the Confinement lady is gone...oh dear oh dear..

Breastfeeding Stress

2007-12-01T12:01:00.001+08:00

Have been quite stressed up on breastfeeding these couple of days cos Garreth boy is a high cc to maintain and has been demanding his feeds at every 2 hrs interval. Just 2 days ago, I've decided to latch him on entirely during day and then bottle feed him with either formula or my expressed breastmilk at night, but seems like he has developed the habit of suckling to sleep and has been giving the confinement auntie hell at night, yelling for my breasts. I refused to budge cos' I want him to get adapted to bottles at night as I would not have the luxury of total breastfeed him when I'm back to work. Not sure if what I'm doing is right though...sigh.

Anyway, Hubby Goh has been a great support so far. Seeming me so stressed, he took half day leave yesterday and brought me out to Sitex show to hunt for a cheap LCD TV bargain together. The old 29" Philips in the living room died on us on the 5th day I was discharged from the hospital and the house felt so dead without a TV, especially when visitors start to roll in.

Talk about visitors, there has been no one day where we have peaceful days without visitors. Who were the ones who said post-natal women needs plenty of rest during confinement? Seems like alot of people are not aware or totally bor chup, they just happy happy pop by without calling us in advance or check if it's convenience to visit.

Yes, I'm talking about my MIL the dearest.

Eversince she's back from her Genting trip, she has come almost everyday to visit her grandson. Sometimes alone, sometimes she will bring her relatives or good friends along. Usually she will shoo me to my room to rest, but come on lah, how to sleep when they are all talking and laughing loudly in my living room? And that's not all, she will bring her camera along with her everytime and then start shooting Garreth boy with the flash on although I have told her umpteen times that flash are harmful to newborns' eyes. She will just replied and said that baby is sleeping, his eyes are closed, so no issues. I am so freaking pissed!

I think she has also gave up on me cos' she keeps asking me to rest but I don't, she asks me to eat more but I don't cos' I'm not hungry all the time and the list keeps going on. In fact, I think I have broken more confinement rules than any other gals that my confinement auntie also shook her head, haha. But it's amazing that my mum has been quite supportive so far, besides ice-cream and durians, she also allowed me to go out to take a breather at times. I think our own mums are the best! Haha..

Here's my garreth boy...the little rascal!

Peaceful Days

2007-11-28T12:44:00.000+08:00

The CL from hell is finally sacked! Woohoo!

I couldn't stand her everlasting nonsense that I pestered the agent to send her away and get me an immediate replacement on Monday. Freaking hell, she (CL) was still blabbering away, blaming me that I didn't inform her the previous night so that she could pack ready her stuff. Oh come on, use her pea brain, if I were to inform her early, I reckon she might have ill-treated my son at night!

Anyway, am glad that all is well now with the replacement on board. This new auntie is so much of a help than the previous one. She does things without me having to specially instruct her and so far, she has already tidied and cleaned my messy kitchen yesterday and today, she has scrubbed my toilet till sparkling clean! I'm impressed!

Me looking forward to end of confinement days, my goodness, I'm so confined that I wanna kee siao liao!

Moo Moo Cow

2007-11-24T14:44:00.000+08:00

I feel like a cow, having to milk myself every 3-4 hours. But am glad that with all the strong determination, breastfeeding has been a breeze so far. I don't like it when Garreth boy suckles and I dunno how much he took in, so I've opted to express the milk out and feed him from bottle to monitor his consumption. This boy is a high cc man, at just 1 week +, he is already taking 80ml every 3 hours!

This is the full bottle I yielded in the morning...mooooo....

The CL tested my mum's patience last night and I've finally decided to call up the agency to complain and asked for a replacement. Currently waiting for the agent to revert back on the replacement, I can't wait for this horrible woman to leave!

I've Popped!

2007-11-22T11:56:00.000+08:00

Finally could take a breather and update the blog. Been suffering from blogging withdrawal symptoms since the day I popped...it was so sudden and we were so not mentally prepared that right now I've yet to recover from the shock :)

Anyway, it was 15 Nov and here's the detailed birth story:

9am: Hubby Goh and I as usual went for our 38th checkup and he promised to bring me to BK for breakfast before heading for work cos' I had cravings for it. At the clinic, Dr Chan made me do the CTG scan to monitor my contractions and baby's heart beat.

9.40am: Dr Chan analysed the CTG report and said that I only had mild contractions and that baby's heartbeat is good so not to worry. Subsequently he performed VE on me and realised that I was already 4cm dilated and my cervix is already very soft. Immediately he sent me to the labour ward and told me that he will see me "in a few hours' time"....OMG!

10am: Was admitted to Labour Ward and sent to Delivery Suite 9. Changed into surgery gown and nurse gave me enema to poo. Was terribly hungry but they just won't give me any food or even WATER! Meanwhile, Hubby Goh dashed home to get the hospital bags and admission documents.

11am: Nurse put me on drip to intense the contraction. Damn bloody bored and the stupid TV channels all showing food programs..made me even more hungry!

11.30am: Dr Chan came to burst my water bag...felt a big gush of warm water flushing down from "below".. Hubby Goh finally came back and joined me in the delivery suite.

12pm: Contraction getting more painful, I chickened out and opted for epidural..haha.

12.15pm: The anesthetist came and administered epidural for me. Nice chap and the whole process was smooth and painless. No instant relieve of pain, though the lower body starts to get numb, still could feel the pain but manageable.

1pm: Nurse came to check my contraction pain level. It was still painful so they added more dosage to make my lower body more numbed. After a while, I couldn't feel my legs at all, Hubby tried to pinch or hammer them but I could not feel anything! Don't like the feeling.

2.30pm: Midwife did VE, already 8cm dilated...

3.30pm: Performed VE again, midwife said can get ready liao and taught me how to push. Pushed twice and they could see a little of baby's head. Pushing was halted and midwife went to page for Dr Chan

3.40pm: Dr Chan arrived and started to wear his surgery gown and got ready his equipment. 2 Midwives assisted me in the pushing, one monitored my contraction, another one was pushing my tummy. After 3 pushes, Baby Garreth is out!!

That's Baby Garreth freshly out from the womb..

It was a touching moment when baby was brought to my chest the moment he was delivered. Both hubby goh and I were so happy that we were lost for words and dropped tears of joy together. If my memory didn't fail me, I think Hubby Goh did kiss me after the process was over..haha..must double check with him, the labour went so quick and fast that I can't really remember some details.

I was still pretty awake and cheerful after the delivery. Waiting for the midwives to clean me up and send me to my ward.

Baby Garreth on Day 1...my precious little one... :)

Stilll adapting to confinement days. Now I know why it is called confinement cos' it's really confined at home and doing nothing but eat, sleep, breastfeed and eat, sleep, breastfeed. The CL is driving me nuts each day, she's like a spoilt radio which keeps on repeating her words again and again non stop. The only thing I could compliment her is that she can cook, but that's after making a hell out of my kitchen, I have never seen my kitchen in such a messy state before, like a war-zone. Wanted to call the agency to complain yesterday but after some thoughts, I've decided to give her another chance and monitor her performance till tmr. If all's not well, she has to go go go!

Alright..gotta go rest liao..more updates in the next post!

Annual Leave Day 3

2007-11-14T10:43:00.000+08:00

Just when I thought I want to venture out today alone, it has to RAIN! Hate it! Hate it!

Know what? I've waited the entire day yday and the tooopit postman only came at 4.20pm! I couldn't shower, couldn't nap, couldn't go out juz becos' of HIM....aye...

Anyway, glad that I've got my stuff before I popped!

Some loot I've bought online from drugstore.com....cheaper than what can found in Singapore.

This is tummy at Week 38. Reckon that I should take more pics for keepsake since popping soon. Sure is gonna miss the days of caressing the tummy soon. Noticed that the tummy is getting lower now cos' BB Goh has already engaged and awaiting for birth. Walking with the weight pressing against the pelvic is really no joke. The pregnancy only became a challenge recently when the birth date is nearing. No wonder they say the waiting game sucks nearing the end of the pregnancy. Now I totally agree.

Here're the achievements for yday!

1. Polish the mirror in the walk-in wardrobe - CHECKED!
2. Clean the shelves in the walk-in too - CHECKED!
3. Clean the floor with the magic clean wipes (so dusty!) - CHECKED!
4. Download new mp3 songs..now Hubby Goh has officially taken over the possession of my iPod..hmmpf! But no worries, I've got a new one, an iPod shuffle lookalike which I have received at the recent event I have attended. - CHECKED!
5. Read at least a chapter on Gina Ford's book - didn't even start on a page..haha!

Today's plan:
1. Do laundry if the rain STOPS
2. Read Gina Ford's book
3. ...................what else ah??? *lost look*

Annual Leave Day 2

2007-11-13T11:33:00.000+08:00

Was woken up by Hubby Goh's alarm clock at 6.45am... that idiot keep snoozing it till 7.30am that I got so pissed and hit his head with my small pillow...ughh...so inconsiderate!!

Luckily I managed to sleep back for another hour plus, else will definitely be grouchy the entire day and become unproductive :P

The weather's super good today! But I can't step out of the house cos' the postman's coming to deliver the bulky item they failed to deliver to me last week as I was in the office. And I'm under his mercy leh, gotta wait from 10am to 5pm for his "arrival"....sure hope he can come soon so that I can sneak out of the house and take a breather. I'm dying of boredom at home!!! I know..this is my dunno how many thousand times complaining it right?

Anyway, I have set some "goals" to be achieved today, so I better get going and get things done:
1. Polish the mirror in the walk-in wardrobe
2. Clean the shelves in the walk-in too
3. Clean the floor with the magic clean wipes (so dusty!)
4. Download new mp3 songs..now Hubby Goh has officially taken over the possession of my iPod..hmmpf! But no worries, I've got a new one, an iPod shuffle lookalike which I have received at the recent event I have attended.
5. Read at least a chapter on Gina Ford's book

Did you catch Heroes last night at Channel 5? I thot it rocks! Actually I have all the disks at home, but just dun have the "motivation" to watch it..haha..how ironical!

Alright gotta start "work"....ciao!

Mission 1 Accomplished!

2007-11-12T16:12:00.000+08:00

It's only the first day of my leave and I'm already dying of B O R E D O M liao..

Luckily I bought some barang from Ikea to keep myself occupied at home previously. I kick-started my first "project" at 1pm and completed it within an hour! I is so proud of my achievement!

The process:

1. Unwrap the set of mural stickers and then start cutting them into small pieces so that it's easier to arrange the design I want.

2. I arranged them on the floor first so that can visualise better...

3. Once satisfied with the design, I transfer them to the wall and start pasting them one by one.

TA DAH!! Here's the masterpiece!!

Chio not??

I think it's quite nice lah...and sure hope Hubby Goh will like it too. Ermm..by the way, he wasn't informed that I'll be transforming the wall. Sure hope that he will not jump when he's back home tonight...keke...but even so...it'll be TOO LATE. Once done, cannot be undone.

Nah nah nah nah..boo boo!

Cool Rainy Monday

2007-11-12T11:35:00.000+08:00

It's a lazy monday, the sky started threatening to erupt at 9am and finally let go of a downpour at 10. Wish could sleep more but the irritating mental clock has to wake me up at 9am sharp! Can't seem to sleep anymore even after tossing and turning in bed for another 30mins..urrgghhh!

Recently Hubby Goh has been busy fixing my food craves...Clementi satay, mango desserts from Ice Monster, G7 seafood, Burger King Whopper, Breakfast waffles from Coffee Bean, Bedok 85 Bah Chor Mee...haha...yummy yummy.. Hubby Goh was worried at the rate I'm eating, hopefully what I ate, BB Goh also absorb and the weight gain is not entirely only on me..hehe..

And well, here's my latest buy from the auction!!

It's brand new and bought it at $30 (usual price with mat cost $49)...not bad huh! We picked it up last evening and now waiting for Hubby Goh to "commit" a deadline to have it set up. I sure hope he won't take half a year to do it...

Have originally set with Ted to go shopping today but looks like we have to shelve the idea cos' it's still RAINING...sianz..

I wanna find something to do now to kill the boredom...

At Week 37

2007-11-08T13:54:00.000+08:00

The tummy is getting bigger and I'm getting less mobile. Even just walking up a slope at the multi-storey carpark leaves me panting.

Already 25 gals in the forum has popped! Looking at their beautiful bb photos makes me so looking forward to seeing mine.

Will be visiting Hubby Goh's granny later (just recovered from a stroke). Should be doing a little shopping in town too cos' the blur mummy to be forgot to buy Baby Cream to stand by..hehe.

Tmr will mark the last day of work for the year...woohoo! Dunno how to survive the boredom at home alone...sigh.

Have a good holiday everyone!

He is Grumpy Today..haha!

2007-11-07T13:29:00.000+08:00

Went for the 37th week checkup today and saw Baby Goh pouting during the 4D scan..haha. He's probably feeling grumpy cos' the mummy hasn't had breakfast and he's terribly hungry, my poor baby!

Anyway, am quite disappointed by BB Goh's growth today. His weight today is 2.85kg. Dr Chan remarked that he sees a slow growth this week as compared to 2 weeks ago and that could be attributed to my hypertension problem. For me, my weight has stabilized and I'm glad that there's no gain this week.

Somehow, am quite frustrated about the arising hypertension problem I have inherited from mummy. Have already tried my best to cut my salt intake and watch my diet but the freaking hypertension problem still doesn't go away. It stays on like a leech and prevents my baby from growing the way I want him too. Sigh. Whatever it is, I'm still thankful that he is still growing though...what more can I ask for right? Just upset that I have this hypertension problem that hinders his good growth. *pout*

Dr Chan's gonna monitor my BP again next week and do the CTG scan to check contraction too. He stressed that if BB continues to have slow growth, he will recommend to induce me and bring BB out earlier. Well, actually I dun mind lah..BB Goh is already considered full term, so he is ready to be born anytime. But hang on...after 12 Nov ok? Now still cannot...continue to be good ok?

Buay Tahan Liao

2007-11-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

I thought I can be garang and could pull it off till 19 Nov, but I was very wrong lor. Was out only half a day on Sunday with the parents to shop for the herbs and dried foods left me nursing a backache yday! That is when I've decided that my "time" is coming soon and I don't think I can dong till the following week...I need plenty of rest before I pop!

So my official last day at work will be this FRIDAY! Woohoo!!

Have already rushed out my handover list to the boss yday, now left a little nitty gritties to settle before I can totally wash my hands off from work and concentrate on the arrival of BB Goh. Am getting all the jitters but I know I shouldn't cos' I'm already all prepared for the big day.

Argh...going for my 37th week checkup tmr again...really praying hard that all is well and my BP is stabilized..most important of all, BB is still growing and not me la. Tonight got dinner session somemore, better not eat too much else weight will soar high up tmr and will be hard to shed after birth. Already passed the 10kg mark, so now taking hope that it will not pass the 12kg mark.

Been feeling lethargic at work since yday. Hate the feeling especially when I stand after sitting for too long...the backache sucks and I literally have to limp my way till the muscle has been stretched for a couple of minutes. Lucky the massage by Hubby Goh last night was good, the ache has kinda lightened after it and hopefully will not get worse by each day. I think I need a good swim to ease the pain...maybe this Thursay.

*Yawn* Dun feel like working leh...

Tio Small Small

2007-11-04T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hubby Goh knocked off from work yday late afternoon, washed his precious car and then came back home to setup the playpen and started cleaning it. Thereafter he kept all the ironed clothes from the kitchen back to the walk-in wardrobe and helped to tidy up the store room a little to accommodate the extra packs of pampers the sister bought from Japan. And all these time I was napping in the room with the aircon blasting at 22 degrees..haha..so shiok!

It could be that heaven decides to reward Hubby Goh for the hardwork, his car plate number came out starters last night, with the exact number and the exact sequence. But but but....unfortunately, the kuku man only bought $2 big iBet and end up winning a miserable $52. So wasted...

The big winners? My papa and mummy!! The avid 4D punters..haha!! They both bought $2 and $1 Big respectively and happily called me up last night to check if I've also striked. Sigh...me no "inspiration" yday lah...so never buy. But I'm happy for them lah..they gain is also my gain mah...mummy said she's gonna sponsor the herbal and dried stuff we are going to buy later...yahoo!!

Achievements so far:
- Playpen set up and cleaned
- Sterilizer tested
- Buying the herbal and dried stuff later
- Hospital bag packed and finalised (juz can't decide which outfit to bring for wearing home on the day of discharge..haha..dunno if the old clothes still fit or not)

More things to do:
- Set up the electric airpot, test and start using it
- Put up the 2 photoframes (on the wall, can't decide which panel of wall?!?) in BB Goh's room
- Call Studio Loft to check if my Bloom shots are ready for collection
- ....anymore???

One by One Starts to Pop!

2007-11-03T12:30:00.000+08:00

Just got a sms from one of the forum gals that she has popped this morning! Omg! And her edd is only a day earlier (25 Nov) than mine! *panic* We share the same gynae from the same clinic together with another gal from the forum and she's the first to pop among us!

It's only 3 Nov and right now, already 14 gals from the Nov MTB thread have given birth! So exciting! But no no no no...BB Goh cannot be out that soon, cos' mummy hasn't even completed her handover, buy dried foods/herbs with Ah Mah (going tmr), clean up the play pen, tested the sterilizer, and most important of all, the confinement lady is not ready yet!!! Just tahan for another 9 more days and you can choose whichever day you wanna come out ok? Be good yah??

The weather's good today and I'm finally done with all the washing of BB Goh's clothes and stuff. So happy! But recently has been feeling terribly tired easily. Like last night, slept at 12am, woke up at 9am, and now the tiredness starts to kick in liao. Wa kaoz!

Anyway, I wanna rave about this new mascara that Ted bought me from Tokyo! Simply love it!
I've used so many types of mascara and this proves to be the most fuss-free and delivers the best result! Gives the right volume and length and doesn't clump my lashes like the Maybelline one. Maybe should get the sister to buy in volume and sell online...hehe..

Prodigal Penny

2007-10-31T17:53:00.000+08:00

It was such an embarrassment that the sister and I didn't exactly know the meaning of the word "Prodigal". Do you?

Prodigal = spendthrift, extravagant, wasteful...

The concert's theme was Prodigal Penny on that night, the story was actually inspired from a story in the bible where this man went for a spree and spend every single cent his parents gave him and landed himself into serious trouble.

Here's a shot of Megen with Ah Mah...

I don't look very preggie in this pic, do I? *hee*

The grand finale..

Rewarding the little one with fries and burger at Mos Burger..though she didn't win the Best Conduct Award this year..

Went for my checkup today with Hubby Goh this morning. Glad that all is well - my BP was stabilized and Baby Goh growth has progressed since 2 weeks ago.

Updates on BB:

- He weighs 2.75 kg at 36weeks Day 2, has grown 450gm over the last two weeks.

- Head had grown a little too, maintaining around the 31-32cm mark, which is good, no more humpty dumpty!

- He's lying very low down in my pelvic and has engaged! Dr Chan said he's of a good position and good weight and he's not worried if I pop anytime! Ermm..don't want lor, my Confinement lady will only be ready after 12 Nov.

Updates on Mummy:

- No protein content in urine, no swollen legs or severe headache

- Gained a whopping 2 kg over 2 weeks, must be the cakes, chocs, fries and ice-cream, gotta cut cut cut! Now total weight gain has soared to 10.6kg..oh dear, already passed the 10kg target!!

- Tested negative on Strep B *phew*

Next checkup is due next week, think Dr Chan's gonna start doing VE (vaginal examination) on me, heard it's gonna be painful..sobs!

Anyway, after the checkup, went to meet up with Ted for lunch at Ikea..

Dunno why the sudden spur of impulsive shopping, bought all these rubbish...haha..

Wall Stickers - like the flora design very much, hopefully I have this motivation to put them up in the living room this weekend.

Moo moo shower curtain - so cute!! can't resist!!

These fridge photo frame magnets are new arrivals! I like the colour..keke..

Now, where should I hide them before Hubby Goh come home from work?

Too Busy!

2007-10-30T18:20:00.001+08:00

Aiya..wanted to post about Megen's concert last Saturday but been too busy the whole day...

My bro in law is on the way to fetching me from work now....so here, see my beautiful tummy first la..

At 35th week, 5th day...

Baby Ashlyn on Board!

2007-10-29T12:16:00.000+08:00

Steady lah, my shopping cum lobang queen gf (Grace) has given birth to a healthy gal last night, 2 weeks earlier than her edd on 15 Nov!

Kekeke..we were speculating that perhaps too much walking and shopping for the past couple of days have triggered her water bag to burst early. She must be disappointed cos' her gal came too early, neither on her birthday (30 Oct) or her wedding anniversary (1 Nov). But one consolation will be she has popped in time for her gynae to be around to deliver Baby Ashlynn as he is scheduled to be outstationed for a conference from 8-10 Nov.

Now, I'm just worried that I will pop early, hope the baby is cooperative to come out only after 12 Nov, otherwise, I might face the problem of having no Confinement Lady around (her current assignment will only end on 12 Nov!). Pls pls...BB Goh, pls be good ok?

Busy Weekend!

2007-10-27T13:17:00.000+08:00

It's gonna be a busy weekend with so many programmes lined up for the 2 days!

It's the favourite niece's school concert today at the Victoria theatre and the sister bought me a ticket to attend like last year. She's gonna be dressed up as a waitress boogie woogie with her classmates in the evening. Am hoping that she will clinch the best behaved student award again this year, but I dun think so lah..cos' we heard that 2 of her classmates have fell out with her (in other words, dun fren her liao) 2 days ago so perhaps she's not that popular in class afterall..haha. Like mother like daughter *lol*

As for tmr, there will a soka meeting with the rest of the members in the afternoon, gonna be another enriching session I reckon. Then in the evening, it's MIL's birthday celebration at the chinese restaurant. This time, she's combining her birthday dinner with her elder sis and her children. Gonna be a grand affair man, cos' her elder sis is turning 60. As a token of appreciation for all the birdnest, fresh fish and home cooked dinners, I've bought her something small from Citigem:

A white gold pendant with pearls + a white gold necklace !

Wanted to get her something diamony, but errmm...they don't fit my $150 budget..haha..in the end settled for this as I thought it looks kinda simple but elegant. Not cheap also ok, $170, burst my original budget. I hope she will like it though and not chuck it in her drawer collecting dust.

Wah..feell damn sleepy leh..but the part time helper is still ironing the clothes...

My action list this week:
1. Set up the playpen and clean it thoroughly - Hubby Goh
2. Test out the sterilizer with the new bottles and breast pumps - Hubby Goh and me
3. Call the Confinement Lady to check what I need to buy/ standby at home for the confinement 4. Get shifu's contact (for naming BB Goh) - Hubby Goh
5. Finalise the packing of the hospital bag - Meeee

....zzzZZz...

Aside to SY: Read your blog gal...the coach diaper bag was only sponsored half by Hubby Goh ok..he didn't buy it totally for me. And no lah, he doesn't print notes (money), if so, I would have even a wider collection of diaper bags! Haha...

Braxton Hicks Contractions

2007-10-25T16:48:00.000+08:00

Have been suffering from BH Contractions lately cos nearing birth. The tightening of the tummy can sometimes be so uncomfy that you think you're carrying a huge stone inside that is about to explode. Read up on BH contractions and learnt that they existed to let our uterus practise and be ready for the actual birth...when the real contractions kick in, it's gonna be many times worse than what's happening now. Haha..talk about labour pain..

Just got news that Vincent's wife has delivered today! Woohoo! So exciting...it's the start of a new chapter in life. Hubby Goh and I are both anticipating on the arrival of BB Goh and embracing parenthood. 32 more days to go!!

Looking forward to my leave next month...in fact no mood to work liao...haha..

I'm still having my ice-cream and waffles crave leh. *pout*

Ironical!

2007-10-24T12:46:00.000+08:00

And so the truth was to convert the contract gal to be perm staff after her contract ends 3 months later. Hah..what a joke! Just got an email from the MD this morning that the company is undergoing cost-cutting measures and headcount freeze, but somehow they are still hiring someone for a supporting department. Shrug. I can never understand what the higher management thinks. But one thing for sure is that I must make myself indispensible in the dept/company first, else I reckon the first to chop might be ME.

Sianz.

Has already started handing over some projects over to the new gal and work has been a breeze lately until I get kinda bored. They have already stopped giving me new tasks so I'm just following up with the old ones till I go on leave. Even tmr's event, I will only be in charge of registration and nothing else...haha..sometimes it's just a blessing to be pregnant and gets pampered :)

Dream

2007-10-23T09:35:00.000+08:00

It was one of the those rare nights where I slept with no aircon but just pure fan. Shiok, but not enough, and I dreamt of holding BB Goh in my arms and breastfeeding him through the newly bought breast pump...haha..

In the dream, BB goh had little hair, but he was of a good size, so carrying him wasn't much of a problem. Dreamt that I was feeding him with my breastmilk and quickly dozed off after emptying one of my breasts.

Going to see Dr Chan again next Wed, and I hope BB Goh continues to grow steadily and his weight will rise to at least 2.6kg-2.8kg. I'm praying hard.

Been eating lots recently, hoping to pass those carbos and nutrients to BB Goh during this last lap. Craving for Gelare ice-cream with waffles, today's Tuesday and they are having half price, so perhaps will go pop by during lunchie or dinner....

Yums!

My Backup

2007-10-22T16:38:00.000+08:00

Was quite taken aback that the company has hired a contract staff to takeover my work so quickly. In fact, she has reported for work this morning and I wasn't really prepared for her presence today.

She came in as a 3-month contract staff (Snr Marketing Exec). Saw her CV and she used to be an AM with a relatively big company over a short stunt of 5 months. Ah..so she's a job hopper! The boss claimed that she doesn't have any regional exposure, so she will be hired as a Snr Exec rather than AM. I mean in the first place, why is there a need to get an AM when this person is only temp? Unless they are planning for "something" during my absence lah. So suspicious leh. She only reports for work this morning and the whole day she has been sitting in numerous meetings...the boss wants her to get involved in this Thur event at Hooters, next month's India Reseller Night, and of cos' the Dinner & Dance which I'm gonna miss in December. Somehow I felt threatened.

Arrggghh..I might not see my desk when I returned from my ML two months later. Oh Gosh! How ah?

BB Goh's Blog DONE!

2007-10-21T14:24:00.000+08:00

Took me half a day's effort to get BB Goh's blog up and going...hee.

Couldn't make up mind to use which template, so I went on and on searching the net for the most appropriate blog skin and finally settled for something sweet and pastel blue.

Now the template is done, just waiting for the contents to be updated. Will only be officially be using it upon the arrival of Baby Goh, so will not be publishing the blog addy now. Meantime I can still decide what other functions to add in to make it even more complete.

Sigh, it's another Sunny day but Hubby Goh is not free to bring me out for swimming. Two weeks of no swimming and it's making me so lethargic. He's going for his facial later and I will just hang around Orchard area till his session finishes. I can no longer lie on my back for long, the weight of the bump presses against all my blood vessels on the back and will numb all my senses. Can feel breathless at times also, so better to play safe and halt all facials now.

Hubby Goh brought me to Ngee Ann city for shopping last evening. Bought me 3 new bottles of Lo Hang Kar concentrated birdnest cos' the "old stock" at home has depleted. Frankly I prefer the home-cooked one anytime, but then again, not everyone is always free to cook for me (and I'm lazy to DIY myself too), so bor bian..

We made a trip to Wisma as well and Hubby Goh bought himself a new pair of working shoes. Now all he's left to buy for the New Year (yes, I do mean New Year = 2008) will be nice polo shirts for CNY visitings. Actually I spotted some really cool ones in Tommy Hilfger, and there was one that comes in the same colour as the one I bought for BB Goh, but cost a freaking $129!! Hubby Goh refused to let me pay for it and dragged me out of the store :( How nice if father and son wear the same outfit right? Hmm...

Ok la..gotta go wash up and ready to get out of the house..more shopping..woohoo!

Finally Here Yeah

2007-10-20T12:58:00.000+08:00

10 days of looooong wait and the Coach Bag has finally reached me!

Though no one was free to give me a lift home last evening after work, I still lugged it home taking a bus! Hee..good thing that there was a kind auntie who gave up her seat for me, else I can't imagine standing on the bus holding this new bag for 1 hour!

Came home and camwhored the new bag..

Comes with a diaper changing pad too...how cool!

It has sooo many compartments that I so love!

I think it's absolutely a great buy..

I is H A P P Y....2 diaper bags to interchange with...

Hiaks.

Such A Genius..haha..

2007-10-19T15:02:00.000+08:00

Have successfully reinstalled the calendar and a new baby growth ticker in the blog. Nicee?

Am I such a genius or what? Haha..

The weekend project will be creating a new blog to dedicate to my darling BB Goh. Haven't thought of a blog name leh, what do dah think? *scratch head*

New Blog Skin

2007-10-18T18:31:00.000+08:00

Like the new look? Hah...I chanced upon it earlier and managed to successfully replace the old html codes...

Swee bor?

Will be editing it over the weekends when I have more time..

Hee...

Baby Goh at 34 Weeks 3 Days

2007-10-18T12:11:00.001+08:00

Just got back from the routine checkup, glad that all is well and I've requested for a mc today to rest at home...hehe. I know, I'm a slacker, but my energy level is really going down and walking is getting more and more like a chore nowadays as the v-area gets pretty sore with Baby Goh's head pressing against it.

Updates from the checkup:
1. Baby Goh now weighs 2.3kg. He gained 300gms since 2 weeks ago. Dr Chan observed that the growth is slowing down probably due to my hypertension, but according to him, it's good cos' bb's head has stayed put at 31.5cm, not any bigger, else I will face difficulty pushing his big head out during birth. And besides, he doesn't encourage big babies, so bb is of average size and just nice..not dua pwee (big and fat).

2. For me, I've gained another 100gms, which brings my total weight gain till date to 8.7kg. Great! That's what I wanted, not to overshot the 10kg mark..hehe. BP today went up a little, but I reckon that's becos' I was nervous on the development of Baby Goh, so heart raced a little bit faster in the morning. Nevertheless, Dr Chan said since my urine test is ok, legs are not swollen, he's not worried abt me getting pre-eclampsia. Phew..I felt so relieved!

3. Baby Goh is not engaged yet, but Dr Chan said he is "almost there"! BB is about three-fifths above my pubic bone, so hopefully by the next visit, he is "there" liao :)

4. From now onwards, will have to lookout for signs of labour. Frequent contractions of 5 mins interval, or bloody show, or water bag burst are signs to lookout for. They might occur in various order, so if any presence off these, I will have to head to the hospital.

Did my pre-admission today at Glen-E after the checkup! I'm getting a single bedder, after much calculations, I think the total bill will come up to about 3K! And that's after deducting Medisave....Geesh!

Aside from that...I bought some bo liao stuff during the past few shopping sprees...haha..

Brag Tag - to hold BB Goh's photo and hang onto my diaper bag to show off *grin*

Baby shower banner - was at Concourse with a colleague yday during lunchie, could't resist buying it cos' it's tooooo CUTE!

Am now working out the guest list and planning how we are going to throw the baby shower. Dun really wish to hold it at home cos' it will be damn messy and I don't think I have the time nor energy to clean up the place after the party. Rather have it at someone's condo (function room). A pity that Sis's place doesn't have a proper function room (only club house but doesn't allow food), else things will be easier. Taking hope that Renne can help us with this though *cross fingers and toes*

On an even happier note, my coach diaper bag has finally arrived Singpost!! Hopefully they will deliver to me by tomorrow!!! Can't wait!!

Life's Good Today...

2007-10-15T12:54:00.000+08:00

What a great day today, no work, chilly weather...listening to mood jazz and updating my blog..hehe..

It's off in lieu for Hari Raya for the entire company, unfortunately Hubby Goh couldn't get a day off, so I'm left alone at home lazing around now. Anyway, I needed a rest badly, cos' the high tea and shopping yday left me with indigestion and backache today. High tea at Melt Cafe was not too bad, though we were hopping that they have a bigger spread than just mee siam, pastries and desserts. But alas, it's high tea and not buffet lunch what, so what more can we ask for at $28/pax?

Shopping with the 2 ladies was superly tiring..haha..the 2 really had the stamina! I had to search for seats inside both Mango and Zara when the gals went mad...but I didn't go home empty handed, bought a baby doll top from Zara at $40 and went home feeling contented. Recently the bump has expanded enormously and I can't seem to fit into some of the tops and even my normal panties!! No doubt I'm going to pop next month, but I still need a couple more pieces of presentable clothes to attend meetings and events. The other day I was wearing a stripey top over black slacks and this stupid Sales Manager commented that I look like a character in the Sesame Street! Urrgghh...

Baby Goh is moving slightly more now, sometimes so intense that I could feel small bumps here and there on the surface of the tummy, or at times he will just retire to one side and makes my tummy loopsided! Hate it especially when he stretches, his head will press against my pelvic, causing sharp pain in the V-area....urghh..and I heard this is only the beginning, more discomforts coming soon..

ok..going to cook lunchie..the hippo is hungry liao...hee :P

Sigh!

2007-10-12T10:34:00.000+08:00

Mum broke the news last night that my sis intends to bring her and dad to Hong Kong on the 1st week of Dec. Could see from her expression that she's very excited about the trip, but on the other hand, she's worried that I could not cope with my confinement during her absence.

Frankly, I was a little affected when I heard the news. I could have taken for granted thinking that mum will always be there for me when I need her, so didn't really bother to think too much. And thanks for my sis to have thought of such a brilliant idea to bring the whole family away during my crucial period in life. I reasoned with sis that I prefer mum to be around my side during my confinement cos' I feel "safer" to have mum around to give me advices and support when I need. Sis on the other hand felt that I will be in good hands since I've already engaged a confinement lady to help. But but...it's not that I dun trust the confinement lady, I'm just worried that something might crop up last minute (you dunno when Murphy's Law will strike) and I need mum's expertise as contingency.

There again, I also dun wish to deprive mum's opportunity to go on a trip. I mean, she has slogged her life for us, for the family, and it is only right that she should go and relax before she's tied down looking after another baby.

Sigh. I'm really torn. I will leave it to mum and respect her decision. The last thing I want is the MIL coming to meddle with my stuff when my mum's away.

Mummy mummy...can you not go Hong Kong this time??

*pout*

Back in Action

2007-10-10T16:18:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the lack of posts, was away for a 2-day off-site meeting where the whole load of us had no internet access at all. Made us all suffer from no internet access withdrawl syndrome!

Anyway, the meeting went on well and my dept didn't get any shit from the Sales Dept. I guess all the chantings work! But the meetings were quite energy draining, I will concuss on the bed right after the night shower and although the meeting has ended yday, I still feel tired both physically and mentally. Yawn...

Aside from that, I'm smelling something fishy going on in the office, something scandalous is happening. The romance of a married man (of 2 kids) and a youthful gal in the company. I'm not 100% sure that the underground romance is true, but somehow their actions and numerous lame excuses gave them away. I dun intend to poke into their business, but this is actually happening to one of my execs, and I dun wish to see her ruined in that man's hands! Dunno how to approach either party to speak the truth, the company doesn't encourage romance in the office, so the big boss is giving me a month's time to investigate and solve the "problem" if it really exist. It's either they give up their relationship, or it will either He go, or SHE go. Sigh! To think that I've just approved my gal on a working trip with him next week to encourage the relationship...but that I really have no choice, if I'm not pregnant, I would have taken her place instead. Aye..how ah?? I dun wish to be a busybody but it concerns the fate of my gal in the company if she sway sway kena conned by the stupid man. Curiosity kills the cat and I just hate this feeling!

Checkup's Update

2007-10-05T17:27:00.000+08:00

Went for my 32nd week's checkup yday morning. Took a day's leave too cos' Hubby Goh was granted a day's off from his nice boss and we spent a good quality together despite the scorching heat.

Checkup's update:

- BB Goh now weighs 2.052 kg, he gained a whopping 600gms over the past 4 weeks. No wonder the bump in front is getting bigger and heavier!
- His head has grown to 31cm. Dr Chan said it's "quite big", cos' his limbs are of average size now. Geesh, I hope BB Goh won't turn out to be a humpty dumpty leh, praying hard that he will be born proportionate. But frens have been telling me that it's normal for bbs to have big heads, asked me not to worry. I don't remember that I was born a big head leh?!?
- For me, I only gained a mere 100gms, cos' BB Goh absorped most of the nutrients I took. Currently total weight gain is 8.6kg, I hope I will not overshot the 10kg mark I have set myself :)
- My BP remains the same at 140/80. Dr Chan said he wants to close monitor me cos' high BP might end up with pre-eclampsia and gotta go for c-sect to bring the bb out earlier. He examined my legs which are still perfect in shape, no water retention or swelling, my urine test is fine, no protein contents, and most important of all, BB Goh is growing well, so he reckoned I could be just suffering from mild hypertension. The downside is that I will have to continue to cut my salt intake and cut totally from processed food. Arrgghh...dreads!

So aside from the checkup, we hop over to HV for a nice and relaxed breakfast at Coffeebean. It's been a while since we have eaten in Coffeebean other than the times he had to send me to the airport in the mornings before I take my morning flight for biz trips.

After the breakkie, we proceeded to Queen Street to get some more clothes for BB Goh. Fwah, I should have gone to that wholesale shop earlier, their stuff are really good and cheap! Baby's top cost only $1.60 each and long pants was going at $1.50 each! Cotton material somemore, cheap cheap! Then dunno why, we were mesmerized by the crowd in Kwan Inn Temple, so we went in and took a peep, I even said a little prayer silently, pray that all will go well for me for this pregnancy.

Since there were still so much time for us, I suggested Hubby Goh to make a trip down to his tailor to make some new shirts for the new year. Ok ok..I know it's bit too early for the plan, but I guess since we have the time now to do so, why not? By the time BB Goh arrives, I don't think we will not have much of our ME time, we will most probably evolve ourselves around the baby instead. In the end, Hubby Goh made 4 working shirts and a pair of pants. He has decided not to wear any of his new shirts for the CNY (yah, he more kia-su than I do!), cos' we had to manage the baby, so we will most probably be shopping around during the next few weekends for nice polos and tees for him. As for muar, sigh...there's still a big question mark if I can regain back my figure and squeeze back into my old jeans. I dun even dare to think that far yet!

Oh..baby baby!

Damn Itchy!

2007-10-03T15:11:00.001+08:00

Dunno for what apparent reason, the area around the belly button starts to itch like crazy. Wonder is it becos' of the Palmer's stretch mark cream or is it becos' the skin is dry and stretching? Been trying to refrain from using my fingers to scratch but the itch is god-damn unbearable. So what I did last night was to give my tummy a good scrub using Body Shop's Satsumi scrub and then paint a thick layer of calamine lotion onto the itchy area and leave it to air for 10 mins.

Somehow it feels better today and instead of using Palmer's, I switched back to the Body Shop's Cocoa Butter stick...so far so good, just that it still itch a little occasionally but still can tahan la.

Yeah! Tmr muar's on leave to go for my 32nd week's check and scan. Kinda worried, dunno what to expect - whether BB Goh is growing at a good rate? BB Goh oversize? BP stable? Amniotic fluid sufficient? What position is BB Goh now?

Am now chanting hard that I can eventually go for natural birth without epi and not having to opt for C-section. Gosh..I'm so paranoid now. Worry seems to be the only thought in the mind and as long as the baby is still inside the womb, every second and minute is kept in thought of it.

Now, who says it's easy to be a Mum?

Ikea Shopping

2007-10-02T10:53:00.000+08:00

Hubby Goh was able to knock off early yday and suggested we make a trip to Ikea to buy the outstanding items. Good to see that he's more pro-active nowadays, I think he's more looking forward to seeing and cradle his own son in his arms than I do..haha...now everynight besides telling BB Goh a story, he will also tell him some nitty gritties at work and kiss my tummy goodnight before turning in. Seeing that sweetens my heart. At least I know he is excitingly anticipating BB Goh's arrival and not feeling miserable having to lose his freedom once the baby is here. Good job, Hubby!

Updates on the following (just to remind myself!) -

Things to buy:
1. Gerber hot and cold relieve patches for the breasts
2. A few pcs more of infant clothings (cos' realised I bought mostly clothings for 3-6 months..hehe..too big liao)
3. Confinement items (Sesame oil, herbs for bathing....etc)

Action items:
1. Contact Kelly's fren from Glen E to reserve slot for the discount on the delivery charges -checked!
2. Pack all bb stuff to the respective new drawers in the bb's room - checked!
3. Wash batch 4 of bb's clothings - checked! going to embark on batch 5!
4. Read 2 chapters of Tracy Hogg's books
5. Go Ikea and get some miscellaneous items (blanket for the CL, more plastic linings for the drawers, etc.) - checked! except on the blanket..can't seems to find an appropriate one.

Hmm..have I left out anything??

Brand New Week

2007-10-01T09:33:00.000+08:00

Haven't rested enough and its the start of a brand new week again..urggh...

And sad to say, among the items in the action list for the weekend, I only accomplished one! Haha..that is to contact the lady from Glen E who can offer me the 10% discount on my overall delivery charges. That's the priority in the list and I'm glad I have already completed it! Muhaha...what excuses!

Anyway, yday was another of the usual Sundays. Hubby Goh skipped work (cos' it was only an UAT session) and brought me to Ghim Moh market for breakfast. I ordered the same vegetarian bee hoon again cos' it's simply too delicious to miss whenever I have the chance to go there. Also bought $25 worth of fruits to stock up for this week. Somehow I have cultivated the habit of eating fruits in the car during the journey to work with Hubby Goh. That man has also been influenced by me cos' I will stuff the cut fruits in his mouth when his both hands are on the steering wheel (can't reject me!). Haha..he said eversince the fruits, his bowels have been soon soon and he likes it, so now all the fruits are all proudly sponsored by him :)

After the breakfast, Hubby Goh went for his haircut and I waited for his return at home so that we can proceed for my Sunday swim at Sis's place. Bloody hell, the usual pool I go was cordoned off cos' of broken glasses so we had to proceed to the main pool instead. Dun really like it there cos' it's odd size and it was kinda crowded yday so after 1.5hrs in the waters, we gave up and went to sis's place to nua instead. The swim was good though cos' it kinda helped to reduce the pelvic pain I have been experiencing for the past couple of days. Must be the weight of BB Goh pressing against my pelvic la...I wonder whether the pain will aggravate once BB Goh grows bigger? Argg...I dun want to even dwell on that!

Aside from that, Sis bought more clothes for BB Goh again! This time it's Gap, Osh Kosh and some Japanese brand, woohoo! BB Goh is really lucky! I do hope that BB Goh really turns out to be a BOY and not a GAL, else all the clothes will be wasted. Some aunties and frens have been commenting that judging on the look of my tummy, it should be a GAL. Mum's neighbour even placed bet and guaranteed that it will be a GAL, not BOY, though mum keep emphasizing that my gynae has triple confirmed that it's a BOY. Oh well, whether it's a boy or gal, I will still love...as long as it is healthy, I dun give a damn. Clothes...can always buy new ones mah...right?

It's a lazy Monday...seems like everyone's on leave today! Probably will leave early to go search for some products in Sim Lim later. Hee!

Countdown

2007-09-28T11:28:00.000+08:00

Notice the Baby Countdown Ticker on top?

Hehe...I juz added it to add flavor to the Blog. I is so smart :P

Will be starting a new blog to dedicate to my little darling once he is born...stay tuned yah?

Sleepy Thur

2007-09-27T11:22:00.001+08:00

Had a hearty breakfast this morning. Egg Benedict Toast is really yummy! I think I wanna learn how to make it for myself and Hubby Goh for one of the Sundays, since now I can't indulge in my favourite sausages and ham.

Noticed that the bulge has grown bigger recently, but weird that my weight did not shoot up, it's still hoovering around the same digit I saw 2 weeks ago (don't ask me for the exact digit!). Walking upslope has became a challenge too, and Hubby Goh has to literally pushed me on the back to support me every morning to the multi-storey carpark. Yah, I know I could have waited for him at the void deck, but no lor, I prefer to do some light morning exercises to keep FIT...haha..I reckon this is the least I can do.

Anyway, people have been commenting that I looked like I have lost some weight (face, arms). Serious meh? Probably becos' my appetite has decreased lately, I dun seem to be able to eat as much as I want cos' just a little bit of food will make me full. And I certainly dun like it when the tummy starts to stretch and becomes so bloody tight that I have difficulties breathing. Sigh, so much of discomfort, but I guess it's all worth it when I see BB Goh eventually :)

BB Goh's movement in the womb has became more intense too. Instead of just experiencing the usual routine kicks, now that he has grown bigger, his every movement inside there can be seen from the exterior of my tummy. Sometimes he likes to cringe to the right side, so my tummy looks loop-sided, sometimes he stretches, we can see the tummy moving in waves. And not forgetting that his hiccups have became heavier thumpings now that he has became a bigger boy. It's always a joy watching and observing all these movements and changes in him, they never fail to bring smiles to mine and Hubby Goh's faces.

9 Weeks to go before I pop. Getting all jittery cos' like there are still so many undone stuff to do but yet I dunno what else more to do...haha..

Things to buy:
1. Gerber hot and cold relieve patches for the breasts
2. A few pcs more of infant clothings (cos' realised I bought mostly clothings for 3-6 months..hehe..too big liao)
3. Confinement items (Sesame oil, herbs for bathing....etc)

Action items this wkend:
1. Contact Kelly's fren from Glen E to reserve slot for the discount on the delivery charges
2. Pack all bb stuff to the respective new drawers in the bb's room
3. Wash batch 4 of bb's clothings
4. Read 2 chapters of Tracy Hogg's books
5. Go Ikea and get some miscellaneous items (blanket for the CL, more plastic linings for the drawers, etc.)

Arh! This weekend's gonna be busy busy!

Walking Zombie

2007-09-26T12:21:00.000+08:00

Last night had an awful sleep. Hubby Goh attended an ex-colleague's wedding and didn't return home till past 12am. Turned out that one of his ex-colleague's car fell into a long kang, and he had to u-turned his car to the scene to check on that fellow. Lucky thing he was safe and sound, but the car was crashed into bad shape though. So they called for a tow truck and Hubby Goh headed home since everything was settled.

Minutes later when he reached home, I heard a phone call. He dashed to take a quick shower and then whispered to my ears that he had to go to the police station to bail his 2 colleagues out cos' the police took them back to the station suspecting them of drunk drinking.

Arhh...all these disturbances caused muar to lose my beauty sleep. Little BB Goh was also disturbed and keep kicking and moving the entire night. We didn't get to sleep till 3am when Hubby Goh came back from the police station. Sigh...now I is like a walking zombie! Hope the afternoon quickly pass and go..I wanna go home and zonk off!

I Love Pressies

2007-09-25T09:41:00.000+08:00

I guess as one gets older, the number of birthday pressies received gets lesser each year. I'm glad that at the ripe age of 32, I still have friends and colleagues who remembers my birthday and bothered to celebrate with me and the best part, got me gifts too!

SY brought me to Indulgz for my birthday treat. The food was ok, could be better if the pork chops are not too raw and fried cheese not too salty. She also got me the "Mushroom Man" and I've proudly brought it to the office to join my current collection. My colleagues all think that he is cute, but it's a pity that my room doesn't have strong solar, so they hardly "exercise" and move at all...sigh..

Mr Mushroom Man is in the center!

And yesterday, my colleagues gave me this sporty looking olive green Adidas tote. Damn funny, their objective of getting me this bag is to tell me that sometimes I do not have to always carry my LV or Gucci bags, it is good to carry a cheaper bag for a change. They suan me leh, so bad *grin*

Thanks folks for the gifts! I love them to bits! Dunno next year still have or not?? Haha...

PhotoShoot & Birthday Dinner

2007-09-22T13:22:00.000+08:00

Hubby Goh rushed home at 12.30am on 21 Sep (my bday!) after his department function to find me already sound asleep. He had earlier went to the only 24hrs Swensons in Orchard to get me 2 ice-cream mooncakes, hoping that I will still be awake and he can sing a birthday song to me with the mooncakes before I turn in. Well, he tried to tempt me with the ice-cream mooncakes, but I just dun seem to be able to open my eyes and shoo-ed him away instead. Haha..what an ingrate.

The ice-cream mooncakes from Swensons. Cute packaging, but I have to tried them yet...Hubby Goh still thinks that I'm a kid leh...got Minnie and Mickey versions..Nice!

So yday, after a good night's sleep, a sumptuous brunch a Breko (HV) and hairstyling at Pauline's salon, we set off and went for the long-awaited photoshoot.

Hee, I brought my Neverfull to the shoot...it was really spacious, we dumped abt 6 sets of clothes and my cosmetics inside and it still has space for more rubbish!

This is the studio..Candida (back facing) is the coordinator, the photographer is still shooting another mummy-to-be in the studio, so we just played time to scan thru' their portfolios and camwhored too.

Pauline gave me a "sophisticated look" yday..cost me $20 to juz wash + blow + set...but I like the look!

Hubby Goh trying to gain some last min. knowledge reading Motherhood yeh...

The photoshoot was a breeze, everything was done within the stipulated 1 hr. I went totally nude for some shots and the effect turned out to be quite good (esp those without my face..haha!). The shortlisting of the photos took us a total of 1.5hrs and I is so proud of us cos' we managed to resist the temptation and only selected the 7 photos we are getting from the package + 3 extra photos at additional costs. Not so bad for a start!

After the shoot, we went home to freshen up. Hubby Goh said wanted to bring me to a new and romantic place for dinner but we have to set off at 5.30pm to beat the peak hours jam.

And here we are at Changi Meridien Hotel - Catrina Restaurant. We took the al fresco seats cos' we wanted to see the sea and the aeroplanes.

The beautiful sunset..

The night falls..

Hubby Goh ordered a tropicana pizza, I didn't touch it cos' it contained the sinful HAM.

I had the lasagna which was terribly good!

The filippino waitress was really nice and offered to take a pic for us..

We were both totally bloated after the dinner and I chose to come back home cos' I had to do the laundry so that my part-time helper can iron the clothes today. Keke..I know it was abit anti-climax, but I was also feeling tired after a whole-day affair. The 3rd-Tri is draining my energy and I hope I will still have the strength to continue my Sunday swims since I've already freezed my gym membership since last week.

Well, though the bday celebration this year was simple, I'm still happy that at least Hubby Goh made an effort to celebrate with me, esp. going to the photoshoot with me. Maryann (the photographer) was telling me that some hubbys would not even bother to bring their wifeys to the shoot, and don't even mention them participating in the shoot with them. So Hubby Goh, thanks for your patience, and thanks for involving in the shoot with me...I love you deep deep always! :)

Long Weekend

2007-09-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

Wheezing off to my monthly mani and pedi later...took half the day off today to pamper myself and tmr again for the Bloom Photoshoot.

I is still undecided what to wear for the shoot, or at least, what outfits to match with Hubby Goh to take the shoot together. I'm opting for the full nude shots (without Hubby Goh) too cos' I really want to see how sexy I can get being preggie. It will be hell of an experience as it's the first time I'm going to go nude in front of strangers besides Hubby. Haha...oh well, rest assure that I'm baring to only the lady photographer and coordinator and no one else. I think I dun want Hubby Goh to watch while I pose too, gonna be awkard!

Anyway, last night's dinner was a quickie. Ambience was so-so (kinda noisy cos' too many teenagers), food was good and Hubby Goh had to swift me off back home cos' he has to rush over to his meeting. So I embarked on Project A at home, did the laundry for BB Goh's new clothes and nappies, cleaned up the chest of drawers with dettol and then fell flat on the bed after that.

I think I'm slowly losing my energy and I better get all things done before I throw the white flag and just nua around waiting for birth. Haha..

K..gotta go...will be updating more over the wkend!

3 Solid Years!

2007-09-19T10:44:00.000+08:00

Hee, Hubby Goh greeted my morning with a hand-made card. I left my camera in the office so wasn't able to take a pic to show. When was the last time he made a card for me? Haha...I think it was way before we got married, during the dating time, one of my birthdays.

Anyway, I'm contented with just this little card (see, I've learnt..I didn't complain). He said he has to attend an important meeting in the evening with Soka people, so he's not able to bring me to a lavish place for dinner, but nevertheless he suggested going to Fish & Co for a quick bite before rushing to his meeting since it was the place where our first date (back in 2001) took place.

Hmm...I think I wanna order Teriyaki Salmon, yummy yummy...

And sorry ah, I need to show off my new LV bag again...

Am still finding an occasion to bring out and how lian..keke. But I wanna wait for the bag organiser I bought online to arrive before using it. The bag is huge, so the bag organiser will come in handy to organise my barang in the bag..no need to dig dig dig..so unsightly!

You know what? Actually I long for some flowers too, haven't been receiving flowers from Hubby Goh, even a stalk will make my day too. But I'm not gonna complain lor...he has spent enough moolahs on me liao. Maybe I will just drop by the florist after work today and buy myself something!

SY dated me for dinner tmr...hehe..going to eat again...I'm looking more and more like a swine..Haha..

I Got My LV! I Got My LV!

2007-09-18T11:38:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! I've finally laid my hands on this pc of gem! Not with the help of my overseas friends, not with the help of Hubby Goh's friends...it's my laring insurance agent who spotted it yday in the Ngee Ann City boutique and called me immediately to inform! Haha..she was there meeting a client so thought of checking out the boutique for me on the stock and voila! They had a last piece and she grabbed it so tight while calling me that other customers darted dirty looks at her.

And so, I'm the proud owner of this islandwide cum europe-wide out-of-stock bag. I'm juz being lucky or what? To think that I got the bag so timely near my bday!

Anyway, Hubby Goh went to pick up the bag from her last evening and paid cash..hehe..it's officially my birthday pressie from him! Initially he wanted to give me a surprise cos' his colleague's SQ galfren flew to Frankfurt but apparently it was also out of stock there. Now he blame our insurance agent for not calling him first, bi char his surprise lobang, haha...

I is so happy!!

Self Reflection

2007-09-16T13:34:00.000+08:00

I couldn't agree more that last night's study meeting gave me a deeper insight on life and made me reflect on my thinking in another light.

I think I have been living in my own uncontented world so far, complaining about the slightest thing in life and feeling unsatisfied all the while and wanted more.

Irene shared during the discussion that the environment will never adapt to us, so in order to live in a better world, WE should change ourselves to adapt to the ever-changing environment. We have to stop living in our own worlds and expect others to give in to you to make you happy and contented.

I'm glad that CH's wife shared with me that one should not set too high an expectation, for the higher you set, the greater the disappointment goes if the expectation is not met. We were on the topics of how attentive a husband should be during our pregnancy (she's a mummy of 2!), and I was commenting that Hubby Goh is ok only lah, most of the time he's too lazy to do anything unless I nagged. I mean she has a sweet husband, he made a point to cook real chicken essence for her during her 2 pregnancies and cheese toast for her every night for supper. Who would complain more? But she said she never yearned of those, for she's very satisfied to have a hubby who's very supportive of her pregnancy. She realised that if she expects more and if he doesn't perform, it will make her even more miserable and what's the point? She's a simple lady with simple requests, and she's happy about it. And not forgetting with abundance Daimoku, things do really make a vast difference.

Looking back, yes...Hubby Goh has been a supporting partner during my pregnancy all this while. Though he doesn't go to the extra mile of making chicken essence or brew birdnest for me, he did other things in his own ways to show his affection - like chauffeuring me around to buy all the BB stuff, having breakfasts with me on weekdays to ensure that I start the day heartily, read stories to BB Goh every night to bond with him, and other nitty gritties along the way.

Sadly, I don't seem to be the least appreciative of what he has done, rather I have been complaining that he doesn't do this or that and longed for more and more each time. I is so ashamed of myself.

I should start re-evaluating myself and be a better person from today onwards!

Now gotta wake Hubby Goh up for the swimming session..hehe..dat sleepy pig *oink*

My Birthday Present

2007-09-14T14:49:00.000+08:00

Hee, I've logged my order for the Coach Bag, a birthday pressie for myself! So happy!

Here's presenting the Coach Signature Stripe Multi-function Tote...ta da!

I know it looks abit basic, but that's what I need it for. Am a big bag freak, so pls don't ask me to carry dianty looking small tote or anything like the LV speedy, they are just not my style.

This big bag is just right to carry A4 docs and files (for attending interviews..haha!) or double up as diaper bag since the LV Neverfull is still out of stock. Hubby Goh is still unaware, but heck, he doesn't need to know since I'm not asking him to buy for me this time round...

Anyway, had a hearty dinner with SY, the birthday gal last evening. We went to Cafe Iguana, the much talk of the town cafe. I'm surprised that it was infested with ang mohs last evening, I wonder what's the draw of the place? I mean it's juz mexican food, the usual fajitahs, chimichangas, nachos and of cos' magaritas...very special meh? Hmmm...but I'm glad SY like it (read her blog!).

And SY, hey..the Nutty Bar Chocs is no ordinary bar chocs hor, it's Royce brand ok? People have to queue long long during X'mas or V-day just to get for their love ones. Lucky your bday not on both days, else I doubt I have the energy to queue and buy for you. But thanks for offering a bar to me ah...I think it's super yummy and will buy for Hubby Goh on our wedding anniversary..haha...*cheapskate*

Talking abt it, I've yet to get him anything for the anniversary. I remembered that night before he tucked me to sleep, he told me not to get him anything cos I've already given him enough (for all the TLC and of cos' carrying his baby!). Hehe...should I just take his words and give him a card?

Tentatively the plan for my bday will be going to Studio Loft for my Bloom photoshoot with Hubby Goh (yes, am opting for the full nude shots!) and perhaps a dinner. There's still no concrete plans on dinner yet, I dunno what I feel like eating, now eating is like basically a chore, no saltish or oily food, no this, no that, and buffet is definitely a big no-no now that the intestines have been pushed up by the womb and squashed (literally!). Last time when the stomach growls, it really came from the stomach....now? I could hear it so clearly below my breasts!! haha...

Shoots..the sleepiness is kicking in again..I need to re-charge for the appointment this evening...

Ciao!

Liar Liar Pants on Fire

2007-09-10T09:26:00.000+08:00

HE told a lie which broke my heart.

I cried last night cos' never did I think that he will do such an irresponsible thing. We have been together for 6 yrs, and married for coming to 3 yrs, but yet, he told such a big lie juz for a moment of folly?

I was hurt, deeply hurt and crying as I stroke BB Goh (tummy) hoping that he will not be affected by my sadness. HE keep saying that he's sorry, but what's sorry when the damage is already done? HE said he lied cos' he knows if he asked, I will never let him go, but is THAT so important that he has to resort to lying to me?

I'm disappointed as I've always thought that he's a responsible man till yday. I'm upset as I've never allowed lies to surface between us. I have been opened to him all these while and I would expect him to do the same. I never like lies, especially from my loved ones...I never like the feeling of having my trust betrayed. The feeling just sucks.

HE assured me that HE will not lie again or repeat his mistake. Is that a guarantee?

Though the lie did not bring any drastic damages, but still, it was a LIE.

HE was all sorrowful and eyes moist with tears when he saw me weeped in bed. Mt heart wrenched each time he tried to explain...I just couldn't hear anymore for I know that I will not trust him 100% again next time. It's sad, but this is how it is going to work for now. You want me to trust you, then gain back the trust lost!

Sigh...feeling all zombie today cos' didn't sleep well last night. If only it's a nightmare and everything's back to normal when I woke up this morning.

Another Auction Purchase Hah

2007-09-08T21:51:00.001+08:00

Muar in super good blogging mood today..hehe..that's why this 3rd entry for the day!

Aiya, Hubby Goh is outstationed to KL, will be back only late tonight, so I've spent the day reading, doing my presentation slides (for work!), napping...and of cos' blogging lah!

Here's my latest buy from Yahoo auction...ta da!

Ameda Lactaline Dual Electric Breast Pumps!

It's so lightly used that it looks (and works) like a brand new set. Retailing at $370 but I only bought it at $220! What a steal!

Was test-trying the set earlier and wow..the suction is superbly good! And the motor is quiet too! I like! Just crossing my fingers that I have the discipline and endurance to breast feed la...else it will be such a waste.

And no, this is not my birthday present from Hubby Goh *phew*

Wrong Delivery!

2007-09-08T13:21:00.000+08:00

So disappointed that Ikea sent the wrong chest of drawers yesterday. It was definitely not our fault as we specifically brought the salesperson/cashier to the drawers we wanted and he keyed in the order for us.

This is the wrong item they sent:

Hubby Goh quite like it and was ready to accept this wrong item to save the trouble, but I was totally against it cos the drawers are space-consuming! This set is twice the length of what I want and I only intend to tug the new drawers in a neat corner and save the rest of the space for other furniture that might be needed in the near future. Men are so "short-sighted" huh?

Anyway, Ikea was good and professional and has agreed readily to replace the item and make the refund back to my credit card.

They better make it right this time round!

The Last Lap

2007-09-08T12:58:00.000+08:00

Feeling all fantastic as I'm now on the home straight - 3rd tri.

Went for the monthly checkup on Thu and is delighted to know that BB Goh is growing well.

Statistic update as at 28wks and 4 days:
BB Goh's weight: 1.4Kg
>> Dr Chan said that he's a big baby like his daddy and mummy, with long limbs as well.

My weight gain since the last checkup was only 1 kg (phew!), and am I glad that from that 1kg, 600gm went to BB Goh! I reckon it could be the durians I ate the week before that contributed to his weight gain? Haha..whatever it is, mum has already banned me from eating durians, said too heaty and not good for the baby. *Fret*

The only worrying thing is that my blood pressure went up a little this time and Dr Chan gave specific instructions that I should cut down my salt intake to play safe. So from now till delivery, I have to abstain from HOTDOGS (sob!), HAM (sob sob!), BACON (sob sob sob!), LUNCHEON MEAT (sob sob sob sob!) and processed food......*wail* Mum is more gancheong than me and since last dinner, she has started to steam and boil all the dishes and even stopped me from indulging in my favourite chicken wings too. Oh gosh...is this life?

Anyway, I'm juz praying hard that this pregnancy will be smooth sailing and I can hold BB Goh till full term.

80 days to go!

Low-Man-Tic

2007-09-05T11:48:00.000+08:00

Haha..was reading SY's blog earlier and I could truly understand how she felt when she was complaining that her old man asked her where she wanna eat on her bday.

Hey gal, at least your old man (I presumed is your daddy la) was sweet to ask. My dad wouldn't be bothered and it has been eons since I received any angbao or bday gifts from him.

And Hubby Goh was another classic one.

I was lamenting how the breast pump which the sister passed to me wasn't working well (motor slow, NO suction, yellowish valves), he said he will get the Medela Electric Dual PIS pump ($700+) as my birthday present. *#%^!! Faint!!

For the first and last time, I don't need a breast pump as my bday present. Even if he's buying, it should be rated as one of the "essential" items that we need during my confinement, and not take the lame excuse that it's my birthday, he doesn't know what I want/need, so since I mentioned I need the breast pump, he will buy for me. Urghh. Thanks but no thanks. How about a LV bag to hold the breast pumps instead? I still haven't got the Neverfull Bag I have been eyeing since June! It's no stock island wide and I'm so super pissed!

Then he also asked what I craved to eat for my dinner. Aiyo...can't he even plan a simple surprise for me? Everytime when the business partners want to buy me lunch, they will conveniently leave the venue decision to me just because limpei is pregnant and is supposed to have lots of food craves. Sigh. To make things clear, from day one of my pregnancy till now, I don't have any food craves lor. And I eat anything, except raw food...I'm not a fuss pot.

Aye..so let's see lah..see what's the bday plan. And that reminds me, I have to get a card for the upcoming wedding anniversary. Three years liao, how time flies! And it's time to shop again!

Bad Hair Day

2007-09-01T11:55:00.000+08:00

Cleared half day leave yday and went for a haircut with Zoey. She loves her new hairdo but I'm pouting at home now cos' Pauline did not give mercy to her scissors yday and gave me a super short haircut.

All because I said one sentence wrongly. I regretted telling her that my hair is growing real fast nowadays and it's getting fuller cos I've started to stop dropping hair due to hormone change!

Urggh...

So she went snip snip snip and layered the back of my hair...now it's so short that I can't even run through my fingers in it! Sob! And I looked like a boy now! I so wanna cry! How to face the friends this evening for the dinner date???

I hate my new hairstyle now. *sniff*

My Babbles and Jabbers ;)

Counting Down

An Eventful Sunday

Tired...Fatigue

AVP

Halfway Mark

It's 90%......

My Biggest Pressie

Myopia or Hyperopia

Sigh....so tired..

Sale Again

Childcare Leave

New Changes...again..

Reality Sets In

Updates

Waiting..

I Cried

A Surprise for Garreth

So Lonely

Bloody Warzone Upstairs

Birthday Pressies

Ups and Downs of Motherhood

New Job New Beginning

Another Prayer Answered!

Red Panty Really Works!

SAD

It's So Hard to Say Goodbye

Demoralised

Good Weekend

Updates

Online Shopping Obsession

My Life After Back to Work

Hope He is Ok Soon

Haha...Got Flowers Afterall..

Got Love but No Flowers

Satisfaction Is When...

Home Alone

Handphone No Ring!

It's A BOY!

Clumsy Me

My Poor Boy

2nd Shopping Spree

Shopping Keeps Me Sane

I'm Cruel

No More Moo Moo Cow

Patient...am I?

Penny For Thoughts

FREEDOM!

Counting Down

Confinement Lady Woes

Mum's The Best

3 More Kg to Go!

Breastfeeding Stress

Peaceful Days

Moo Moo Cow

I've Popped!

Annual Leave Day 3

Annual Leave Day 2

Mission 1 Accomplished!

Cool Rainy Monday

At Week 37

He is Grumpy Today..haha!

Buay Tahan Liao

Tio Small Small

One by One Starts to Pop!

Prodigal Penny

Too Busy!

Baby Ashlyn on Board!

Busy Weekend!

Braxton Hicks Contractions

Ironical!

Dream

My Backup

BB Goh's Blog DONE!

Finally Here *Yeah*

Such A Genius..haha..

New Blog Skin

Baby Goh at 34 Weeks 3 Days

Life's Good Today...

Sigh!

Finally Here Yeah

Another Auction Purchase Hah